~ The next day
I woke up, I was lying on the floor against the wall and had Ellen in my arms. She was still sleeping and I tried my best not to move, I didn't want to wake her up, she was so beautiful when she was sleeping. I started thinking back of the previous day, bits of memory rushed through my mind. Shadow was sleeping next to us, apparently he was just unconscious yesterday. Ellen and I talked for 2 hours before we fell asleep in each others arms. I never thought she would accept me, the way I was, after all she had seen... But nonetheless I was happy she did, so happy I couldn't explain even if I wanted to. Ellen started to wake up and looked up to me with sleepy eyes. I kissed her forehead and she gave me a warm smile. She lay back down with her head on my chest, at ease, like nothing happened at all. Like yesterdays incident never occured. "Hey Ellen, can I ask you something?" I asked, -"Mmhm?" she responded. "Why... Why weren't you afraid.. you know.. yesterday?", -" because I have seen much worser things in my life, because I loved you and because I had nowhere else to go, I belong here with you after all". I felt tears in my eyes, she truly accepted me. But I also realised I couldn't even image what she had been through, what she had seen. I caressed her hair and closed my eyes. I wish this moment never ended. -" Can I ask you something in return then?" she suddenly said, "uh.. yeah sure go ahead", -" well... where did you get that dagger? It looks.. strange". " Yeah I know it does," I said with a smirk, " my dad brought it with him from England, I found it in the attic when I was little." She suddenly stood up, walked towards the dagger on the floor and picked it up. "There's not a single bloodstain, even though it's just regular steel" She said. She seemed to know a lot about daggers. I shuddered, I really didn't want to imagine what she had been through. She handed it to me and she was right, there weren't any bloodstains at all. I shrugged, put the dagger back in my jacket and sat back down on the floor, starting to pet Shadow. I never thought it would come to this, that I would kill again, even if it was to defend her and myself. On one hand I regretted my action, on the other hand I didn't, what would've happened if I hadn't? I couldn't get the questions out of my head, Ellen noticed and tightly hugged me. I answered her hug with a kiss and she smiled. When we were together, our squat seemed like a villa, our food ( which consisted of leftovers ) seemed like a banquet and our life seemed like a dream. Who said you need money to be happy? I had her, and that was enough for me.
