I'm Yours (Book One in the Glen Power Series)

Chapter 11

Since moving back home for the summer, I've rekindled a relationship with one of my closest friends. We've spent the majority of the time together. His name is Jonathan and he is the reason that I am a nerd in the first place. I quickly tell him all about Glen and finally get the chance to air out all my confusion concerning him.

After hearing the story a fair few times, he decides to drop a bombshell on me.

“Nick still loves you.”

My brain goes into overload. My ex boyfriend, the one that I had struggled to get over for the past year, was still in love with me?

“You're lying.”

“Why would I lie? He regrets breaking up with you. Well. Not regrets. It was the kick he needed to realise how much he wants you back.”

“Why would you tell me this now? After everything I've told you about Glen?”

He sighs. “Everything you've told me about Glen sounds amazing. It really does. But it's like you said, Em. Nothing will happen with him. He doesn't want a relationship. But to me, it sounds like you're ready again.”

He makes a valid point...

“I don't even know if I feel the same about Nick anymore.”

“But he loves you. He can look after you. And eventually, you probably will fall back in love with him.”

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I'm lying in the bed that night, with all kinds of things going around in my head.

Nick still loves me. At least according to Jonathan anyway. This is about the most confusing thing that's happened to me. I've finally managed to move on with my life and now I've been thrown back into my old one. The one that I've broken down into a million pieces. Because of Glen.

Glen. Now that's another mind-fuck. I can't fully understand my feelings for him either. One minute I'm absolutely fine with how we are and the next I'm wanting to feel his arms around me again. I miss him so much. Sure, we speak online all the time, but that's not the same. He's all the way in Ireland, and there's no way I can go to visit him or him me. It's just so difficult.

I'm not in love with him. I'm not. But I'm not in love with Nick either. I've spent a year getting over him. What the hell do I do?

Things weren't too bad with Nick. I mean, we had a lot of good times. A lot of bad times too, but it took me so long to get over him. Surely that means something? He must have meant a lot to me if it has taken this amount of time to fall out of love with him, right? Would it be so bad for me to reconsider our relationship?

My phone vibrates. It's Nick. God only knows how he got my new number. He's asking if we can hang out again.

My head is in turmoil. I can't even begin to process how to move forward.

On the one hand, there's the fact that Nick is my ex. We've tried once and it failed. Miserably. Our breakup was nasty. Not just nasty. Fucking traumatic. But he's a good guy. And I had fun. And if I fell in love with him before, I could do it again.

On the other hand, there's Glen. My rock, my best friend in the whole wide world. The reason that getting over Nick was possible. He is practically my everything. But he has no interest in a relationship. He made that crystal clear. There's no point whatsoever holding out for something that won't happen. Something that I don't even know I want to happen.

Oh Christ. My head hurts.

You know what? Fuck it.

I text Nick back 'Sure. Saturday?' and quickly get a reply to confirm.

There's no harm in meeting the guy. At the moment, we're just friends. Two friends can meet up. That's perfectly okay.

So why do I feel like a cheat?

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It's been a few days. I haven't spoken to Glen in about a week. He's been away with family. He texted me earlier to let me know that he's home and that he needs to talk to me online. So here I am, sat at my laptop, waiting for him to come online. I feel like a bit of a fool to be honest. Waiting for a boy to come and talk to me. Sad huh?

His name signs on to Skype and immediately he's video calling me. Soon enough, I see his cheeky grin filling the screen and my heart breaks. I've missed him far too much. He waves enthusiastically.

“You alright?” he asks.

“Yeah, you?”

“Yeah, I'm great! I've got something I need to talk to you about.”

“Oh?"

“Yeah, it's really important and means a lot to me.”

“Okay. But Glen...I need to tell you something first.”

“Oh yeah, yeah sure. Mine can hold on for a few minutes.”

I take a deep breath. I've been dreading this moment...

“I have a boyfriend.”

Silence. I can't read his face. It's usually so open. But I think I see his smile falter ever so slightly. I can tell he's shocked.

“Oh,” he eventually manages to say.

“Yeah.” Why do I get the feeling he's disappointed?

“Are you happy?”

“I think so, yeah.”

“That's...that's good. I want you to be happy. Who...who is it?”

“It's Nick.”

“Oh.” There's definitely something not right with the way he said that.

“Yeah. We met up on Saturday and just kind of decided to give it another go. You're the first person to know.”

“Oh.”

“I wanted you to be the first to know. I want...I want you to approve.”

“Oh right. Yeah. Yeah sure.” He smiles, but it doesn't seem the same. “We will still be able to hang out right?”

“Oh God yeah, of course.”

“Good.”

“So what did you want to talk to me about?”

“Oh...” he seems dazed. “Oh that. It doesn't matter.”

“Of course it does. You seemed so excited. Please tell me.”

“I just...I...I've bought a car.” That doesn't seem like the real answer.

“Is that it?”

“Yeah. Yeah that's all. And I'm bringing it to university when we go back. So we can drive places.”

“Oh. Yeah. That's awesome.” There is something seriously wrong with Glen. “Are you okay?”

“Yeah. Of course. Why wouldn't I be okay?”

“I don't know.” Something isn't right. He isn't acting his normal self.

“So. Yeah. That's all I wanted to say. I have to go now.”

“Oh. Okay.”

“See you around.”

Before I even have the chance to say goodbye, he's signed off. I feel like crap. He won't talk to me, and it all feels like my fault. It isn't my fault. I'm happy.

Or, at least, I will be eventually.

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A/N - I promise this story is going to get a little more interesting. Something BIG is going to happen in the next few chapters. Something not nice. Hopefully make it more interesting. Please keep reading guys. Let me know if you like it. Comment and let me know. I don't bite! Much x