For Him

For Him-1

I clearly dont know how to start this but I can feel that I love you but I dont know if it's true. There are times that I would say that I still have feelings for you but there are also times that I would get angry. I dont know.

Do you remember when you said that you'll always love me?

Do you remember the day that you swore that you will not love anyone else but me?

Do you remeber when you said that you're not going to give up on me no matter how it takes?

Do you remeber all the times you said you love me?

Do you remeber the day you promised me that you're not going to hurt me?

Well I do. I remember every single one of them. I know I look very foolish right now. Loving someone who clearly dont have a one word. Everything you said was a lie.

Oh I remember, February 13,2015, I did all the efforts I can just to make you happy, I even spent my own allowance just to give you a present. I gave you a jar full of messages, a big card and 2 cupcakes. I remember all of those.

That day you got hurt why? Because you saw your ex being happy with another person so what am I here? Did you even loved me? I was so irritated when I knew all of those. I talked to you. You said it was all true but it doesn't mean that you don't love me. You also said that we should not look at the past.

I thought those 3 months were all true. But what the hell you lied. I know im already a foolish person but please stop saying it in my face. It hurts a lot. Knowing that you're the only person who I exerted my efforts.

You're the person who gave me a heart ache....

I still remember all the fights we had even tho they are not a big deal to you but for me it was.

The main reason of our fights is JEALOUSY why? because you always over react. Some guy just talked to me then youre going to be angry, youre not being a mature person.

I'll admit, im also a jealous person but i think it is in place not like you.

Its not being jealous, its being insecure and paranoid. You knew all about my past and you knew that i dont like being replaced.