Manan ff... Love Brings Hatred Along...!!

PART-14 I LIVE OR DIE...??

Hello readers...!! See this time early naa... so let's not waste time and move on with the story...!!

At nandini's place-

Navya: for ur parents...!! for amms...!! what they must be feeling seeing u like this... at least for them.. come back...!!
(That was it for nandini... as the mere discussion about her parents and amms... made her look at navya...then she stood up and started walking... towards her room... and this time none of them stopped her... as now they were feeling that they failed... but then they saw her turning... towards them... and she said...

Nandini: U WANT ME TO COME BACK FOR THOSE... WHO THEMSELVES WILL NEVER COME BACK TO ME...!!! U WANT ME TO LIVE... FOR MYSELF NAA... THEN GET IT CLEAR IN UR MINDS... I WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS... !! LIKE THE WAY I AM NOW... !! I DON'T WANT MYSELF BACK...!! I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT OLD NANDINI... I DON'T WANT TO BE WEAK AGAIN...!! AND I DON'T EVEN CLEARLY REMEMBER HOW I USED TO BE...!! SO U ALL ALSO FORGET...!! (She said all this in a very loud voice... and in all her senses after a long time...and pushed a table kept near her in aggression... her this action and her words took away the senses of others standing there... but as this was not the time to be weak... so again...)

Abhi: (he came forward to her and held her by her arms...and said loudly...)NANDINI...!! kis se... jhoot bol rai ho... humse ya khudse... ?? ye Tum bhi jaanti ho aur hum sab bhi... that u are not happy... u don't like urself anymore... u want to finish ur life... aaj tum humse toh kya khudse bhi nazare Milana nai chahti... because u know u are wrong...!! Plz don't do this to urself...
(Nandini was blank for sometime as she had no answer... because somewhere she knew that she is not correct... she is not happy... she so wants her life back... but she had decided she will not fall weak... she will not let out her pain... because still the person because of whom she has become like this is not here... for her... so she has locked herself in that darkness... and lonely world of hers... )

Nandini: ( looking here and there) it's nothing like that... I want to live this life only... where I am strong... where I don't cry...!!

(This time cabir came to her and said... as he have had enough now... enough of the polite behaviour... as that behaviour has not helped in getting her back so this time... he said it loud...)

Cabir: u think u are strong...?? U think that u are happy...?? and u think the old nandini was weak...??Then u are highly mistaken... U R NOT STRONG... U R WEAK... BECAUSE... IF U WOULD HAVE BEEN STRONG U WOULD HAVE FOUGHT WITH ALL THE PROBLEMS... LIKE THE OLD TIMES... U WOULD HAVE FACED THEM... IF U WOULD HAVE BEEN HAPPY NAA ... THEN U WOULDN'T HAVE TRIED TO DIE ... IF THIS IS HAPPINESS... THEN ... UR DEFINITION HAPPINESS IS TOTALLY WRONG...!! NOT CRYING DOES NOT MEANS THAT U R HAPPY...CRYING DOESN'T MAKE U WEAK... IT'S IGNORANCE... IT'S RUNNING AWAY FROM UR PROBLEMS WHICH MAKES U WEAK...!! LIKE U ARE RUNNING AWAY... FROM PROBLEMS...!!

Nandini: No...!! No...!! No...!! I am not weak...!! I am strong...!! I will not cry...!! ( she shouted... and then... her breath became uneven... but still she continued...) I will not let anybody of u affect me...!! Nobody affects me...!! (Now she started coughing... as now it was too much for her... firstly she was talking for so long after a long time... and on top of that shouting... was really not helping... with this everyone became... worried for her... then cabir started patting her back... but she pushed him... not wanting anyone near her...) Just go all of u...!! Just go...!!
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With this she started moving to her backyard... as now it was getting difficult for her to control herself... but her bad luck her backyard gate was also locked... so now she became more furious... already her condition was getting worse... but she shouted again...