Meli's Crush

New Crush Not Going Well

Warning this book contains some sexual content so if you are under the age to read a regular fanfic don't read this, otherwise enjoy this book with the song above

Him... that guy right there... he makes me feel wierd I-i don't know what it is *I look at a guy across from me*. We have art together and ride the same bus. And right now we are in the same 1st period together. I don't know what it is about him, but he keeps looking at me too. Am I that ugly? Is there something on my face? Why u look at me like that? I have no thought in my mind saying it could be possible that he likes me. I must really think I'm beautiful, talking sarcastically.

This is a personal diary I'm writing in while talking in my head. Morning announcements came on and I am too shy I don't even know which way I should look. Through the corner of my eye I see him... is he looking at me too or is that my imagination? Why do I feel so lonely all of a sudden? *At art* There he is again since the beginning of this school year he's been here. Art teacher, Mr.Jefferson, said, "Everyone get into groups, we are going to be doing a project, you know what? I'll put you into groups myself." I didn't really care about the people I was put into a group with until he said "Meli, Jason, Ari, Wyatt, and Matt". I jumped up all confused and nervous, my heart started bursting out of my chest. "May I go to the bathroom?" I asked. "Sure.." Mr.Jefferson said. And I got up and hurried to the bathroom.

When I got to the bathroom I looked in the mirror and held my hand on my heart as it beated really fast. "Io sono innamorato" as they in italian which means I'm in love. I can't believe it I leaned on the wall and dropped to the floor and said out loud, "I'm in love? Again? Goddammit". "I need to stop falling in love or else I'm gonna end up always end getting heart broken." I sighed and looked through the window out the bathroom. I went back to class after calming myself. Lies I ran out that bitch when a girl came in looking at me weird.

I walked in and got to my group, but still a little embarrassed. "Alright your back" Wyatt said. I smiled and looked at Matt a little then turned my face when he caught me. "So we are supposed to build a animal out of boxes" Wyatt said while laughing. Then Matt said, "Shut up Waleed". Wyatt pushed Matt a little and said "Shut up punk". I looked in suprise and then they both started laughing leading to a death stare. "Alright let's get to it " Ari said.

At lunch I started drooling while thinking about Matt. "Hey you're drooling over the pizza" said Kesley, my best friend who I also call Kels. "Oh shit" I got up, wiped my mouth and looked back up to see Matt staring. "Oh shit" I shouted and got up grabbed Kelsy's hand and ran to the bathroom. She also most fell but I stopped so fast at the door of the bathroom so she was able to get up.

"Wtf" Kels said as I was holding my chest. "He... he looked at me" I wiped my mouth and began to calm down. Kels looked at me confused so I said "Matt, I like him." She looked at me suprised and happy for me saying "Yes he's perfect for you ask him out I'm pretty sure he likes you." "Really? Oh well no I'm too scared I need to get rid of my feelings for him before I get heartbroken again" I said. "No, no, no, he won't break your heart I know it" Kels said. "Give it a chance." I walked around the bathroom and turned back to her "Doesn't he have a girlfriend?" "Oh yeah.....No!" I jealously said, "B-but I saw him in the hall one day and some girl said they were a cute couple." "Fake!" Kels shouted. I looked away and said "I'm not confessing." "Yes, you are bitch" Kels excitedly shouted while dragging me out to Matt.

My heart started beating so fast and I blushed as a beautiful smile appeared on his face. "Hey Matt, you know Meli right?" He looked at me and said "Yeah, she's in my art and 1st period together. She has talent". I was shocked by his answer and Kels smiled sitting me down at his table. I looked at Kels and she said well why don't you talk to her. She ran back to the other table and I looked back at Matt. His smile was so beautiful and happy I smiled back, but then my heart couldn't that much excitement so I fainted.

I woke up in the nurse's office with Matt on the other bed. I jumped out the bed and looked at him. "He's sleeping" I said quietly and stared while walking closer to him. I was tempted to touch his face but then he woke up and said "Not!" I blushed and backed up. He got up and smiled at me "Please stop smiling so carelessly towards me." He frowned a little then straight faced me. "Well its time to get to our 7th period classes" he said and walked away. I frowned and felt an ache in my heart making me feel so sad.

On our way home after school he sat in the seat back across from mine. I could tell he was looking at me but for what reason? Does he hate me? Am I ugly? Again negative thoughts in my head. I put my elbow on my bookbag and looked at out the window towards the trees. He was the stop before mine so seeing him getting off the bus made me feel like I was losing someone. At least it was Friday.