Lost Souls

Chapter 6

We all stayed at Gracie and Tom's the first night after it happened. None of us wanted to be alone, and when it came to going to bed, we sat up all night together. We didn't speak much, but all that we needed was each other. 
Gracie was the one who called Dylan's parents. All I could think about was how awful they would be feeling, not for only losing one child, but two; all of their children, gone.
They arrived some time through the night but only stayed for a little while before going to a hotel.
We were wide awake until the kids woke up for breakfast, which is when we decided to leave.
"Jay you're more than welcome to stay here if you want" Tom offered. 
"I think I'll find a hotel for a few nights. I just want some time alone right now" Jay says. He and Tom embrace, and he then hugs me and Fletcher before heading out. 
"We'll be in touch with Dylan's parents about funeral arrangements. You'll be the first call" Gracie tells me and we hug tightly. "I love you, Sammy"
"I love you too Gracie. I'll see you tomorrow" she nods, I hug Tom and wait for Fletcher. We walk out together and get into my car. "I think I'll stay with you. I'd like to be in the city instead of out at the Hamptons" I say and he just nods. "I just need to go home and get some things" he nodded silently again. 

The entire drive out to my house was silence, and when we pulled into the driveway it was 10:45 and Shane's car was still there.
"Come in" I tell Fletcher. We go inside and see Shane watching the game in the living room.
"Hey babe, were you at Gracie's last night?" he asked without turning around.
"Uh, yeah..." he turns around and sits up straighter. 
"You look..." he starts but stops before possibly offending me. I roll my eyes.
"Yeah, I feel like it too" he frowns, confused. "I'm just home to get some things, I'm staying in the city for a few nights" he nods slowly, eyeing Fletcher. "Oh, this is Fletcher. Fletch, this is Shane" 
"Nice to meet you mate" Shane says, walking over with his hand out to shake. When Fletcher didn't say or do anything, I shook my head at Shane.
"I'll just be a few minutes, Fletch" I say and he nods. I walk upstairs, hearing Shane behind me.
"Is he alright?" he asks, shutting the bedroom door. I stop and turn around, angry. "Whoa, what's wrong babe?"
"What's wrong? Oh gee, I dunno Shane. Are you curious as to where I went last night? Maybe you're curious as to how Dylan is?" his eyebrows were raised. 
"Hey, calm down, what's going on?" he asked.
"No, I will not calm down. My best friend is dead and I don't know what to do, and you're being a selfish pig" I scream as I throw clothes into a suitcase. He frowned again.
"What?! Sammy, what happened?" he asked, grabbing my arms as I threw my toiletries into the bag as well. I just stared at him. I shook him off and zipped up my case before walking out of the room.
"Shane if I were you, I'd take a long look at yourself and figure it out on your own. If you're that oblivious, I'm not telling you" I say as we walk down the stairs. "Come on, Fletcher" we walk out to the car and I put my bag in the back.
"Well do you know how long you'll be gone for?" Shane asks from the front door. 
"No Shane, I do not know how long I will be gone for. Don't call me, I need some time alone" I say and get in the car, slamming the door shut and driving away.
Once we got just outside of town, I pulled over and began sobbing against the steering wheel. I felt Fletcher slip an arm under my legs and one around my back and pull me over to his side of the car and rubbed my back as I cried into his chest.

When we got back to Fletchers, we just stood in the main area in silence.
"You can have the main room, I'll sleep in my old room" he says. I nod and try for a smile but it didn't really work. 
"I might lay down for a bit" I say and make my way to the bedroom. I took my shoes off and got in my side. I pulled one of his pillows from the other side of the bed and hugged it close to my chest, breathing in his scent, instantly relaxing. My eyes felt heavy so I let them close, my mind wandering far away from where it was.

I woke up long after, at three am, and rolled out of bed. I decided to take a body shower to refresh myself. 
When I was getting dressed, I realised I didn't bring any sleep clothes, so I pinched one of Fletcher's tops that I loved and put it on. I snuck out to the kitchen and opened the fridge to find food. I pulled out the carton of milk and leant against the bench, letting the light from the refrigerator illuminate the room. I felt a few tears slip down my cheeks and I watched them as one by one, they hit the bench, and soon I couldn't stop the sobs that came out.
I didn't hear him get up, I only realised he was awake when he turned me around and pulled me into him. He lightly rocked us back and forth, holding me close. I fell into a sort of step sequence with him and he took one of my hands in his and moved the other to my waist, and then we were slow dancing. We got into a rhythm and he spun me under his arm before I span back into his chest. We kept going, laughing and muddling the steps up before we fell to the ground and sat against the kitchen cabinets.
"It's okay, Fletcher. It'll all be okay" I say, rubbing his thigh. He sighed and looked down.
"It might be okay Sammy, but I'm really not fine at all" he whispered. I lent my head on his shoulder and we sat there in silence for a while.
"So, Shane seems nice" Fletcher says. I roll my eyes and look at him.
"He is, I think I just let my emotions get the best of me sometimes and he's just there to take it out on" I shrug. He just nods. "We're getting married in a couple of months" I blurted out. I watch his face, curious as to how he would react. 
"Congratulations" he chirps, rubbing my knee grinning. 
"Thanks" I smile, sort of taken back. I thought he would at least seem... I don't know, hurt? "Crap, it's so late. We should probably go to bed" I say, getting up and holding a hand out. Fletcher grabbed it and pulled himself up. We said an awkward goodnight and went to our own rooms.
As hard as I tried, I couldn't sleep. I stared at the ceiling long enough to not notice that the sun had come up until my phone alarm rang out.

A/N:

Hey everyone, I know it's been ages since I last updated, I honestly just haven't had the time and I've also been having major writers block!

I have an idea I'm playing around with for a new possible book so I'm sort of exploring that a little bit and trying to get inspiration for this one.  I know Lost Souls is coming along at snails pace but it's becoming harder to come up with new things to fit into the timeline and characters lives at the moment so please bare with me!

I'll keep you updated on this new potential book in the works, but I am DEFINITELY NOT giving up on Lost Souls! I just need to get past this writers block and we'll be back on track.

I hope you all understand and stick with me, I really am trying. Suggestions are welcomed for a possible plot twist or scenario, comment ideas and inspiration!

-Misfit xx