Cameron's POV
As I was hugging Jessica, I thought about how I've been cheating on her. I felt awful, and sick. I thought about what she would do if she found out. "What have I done?" I repeated in my head over and over.
I let go of her and walked to the bathroom. I held my head in my hands and without thinking, I screamed angrily. Jessica ran down the hall to see what was wrong. She began to ask me why I screamed, I told her I needed her to leave. I knew it would sound rude, but I needed time to think.
She grabbed her stuff and left. I then grabbed my phone off of my bed to break up with Amanda (the girl I was cheating on Jessica with). I couldn't think of a good reason to say to break up with Amanda, so she kind of flipped out on me. I had to break up with her though.
-Next Day-
Someone was knocking on my door very angrily, I ran downstairs and opened the door. It was Jessica. She found out that I was cheating on her because Amanda had told her friend Riley that I broke up with her. Riley knew Jessica, and immediately told her that I was cheating.
Jessica began yelling at me saying "How could you do this to me!?"
"Was I not good enough for you!?"
I just stood there speechless with my eyes wide. I had no idea what to do, or say. I looked down and saw that Jessica had fresh cuts on her wrist. This was all my fault, I ruined her life. Jessica ran back to her car and took off. She never talked to me again.
-A month later-
I don't think I'll ever be happy again. Damn it, I need to stop making this about myself. Jessica is gone, not gone like she moved, or stopped going to school. She killed herself, because of me. Her mom didn't allow me to go to the funeral. I've been writing something. It's a letter, a suicide letter. I'm almost done with it. I'll kill myself tonight, and I'll leave the note duct taped to the front door. Here's what it says "I was an awful person. I can never be forgiven for what I've done. I cheated on my girlfriend Jessica with a girl named Amanda. Jessica had been self harming before we met, she stopped when we started dating. When she found out I had cheated on her, she started self harming again. She had came to my house and ranted about how she felt. She ran back to her car and left, that was the last time I ever saw her. She hasn't talked to me ever again. And a month later, she was found dead in her room. She had commit suicide, because of me. In my mind, it was as if I had killed her. So for her, I'm killing the person that killed her, myself. Goodbye."
