Fix Me ~ Book 1 (PTX fanfic.. KAVI)

Night Light

AN// Are you ready though? Trigger Warning.

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His arm was over me as I layed down, half of my body beneath the sheets. He looked down at me.

"Tell me." He said before removing his hand from over my middle section.

He recently had on a wife beater on and flannel styled pj pants. His hair was out, not in a contained bun.

He ran his hand through his mane, sighing loudly. "I won't hurt you."

"I don't trust that statement" I say softly, without making any eye contact.

He moved the covers from over the half of my body, revealing me only in underwear.

"Uh.." My face turned a bright red, which was hard to see from the dim light. The light shone perfectly on his face revealing a smirk.

He looked me up and down.

No.

"Avi. No." I said pulling the covers over me, which caused them to be down again.

"Tell me." He repeated again. I sat up, and looked at him. He just stared at me.

I got up out of bed, to walk to the bathroom. He follows me, but I close the door on his face. I hear him slide down on the door down to the floor.

"Kirstie. Please." His voice was wobbly and unsteady as he spoke. "I never wanted you to be scared of me. I'm sorry." He begged. I hear quiet bumps on the wall turn into big bangs.

When I think back on why I'm here, I realize that he's in this state mainly because of my relationship. My relationship with Jeremy was soggy and dead. I'm in this state because of Jeremy, though he blames the relationship fail on me. I'll take that. But the fact that I brought the problem to my best friends, and fucked up their lives is another thing. When I think about it, it was probably Jeremy that sent Alex down here. Alex isn't even really all that bad of a person. He just.. Jeremy. Jeremy fucked me up, and my friends. Because of me.

I'm the cause. So, fuck you Kristin Maldonado.

I burst out into uncontrollable sobs, laying on the cold ground. I up at the counter, which had a small razor hanging off egde.

I grab it impatienly and bring towards my inner forearm. I looked at the sharp blade, and weeped.

I immediately traced my skin, although it drew no blood, I cried even louder. And that's when Avi broke the door. He immediately looked down, probably knowing I was on the ground.

He knocked the sharp blade out of my hand, and picked me up. He sat down on the bed, with me in his lap. I actually allowed him to do it.

I look at him his eyes filled with lust, and fear. He shook a bit probably out of fear. His face was somewhat red, and his lips tremble.

"Why?" His hollow voice sounded faded. A stray tear rolled down his cheek.

"I was trying to make everyone feel better. By making me no longer existent. Why do you need me? All I've ever did to this group was hurt it, drag it down from its true potential. And for you; I am the reason you're hurting, I'm sorry I was trying to do the best for everyone that I love. Even if I was scared at one point." I sniffed, looking up at him.

His face was now pouring tears rapidly. He started to cry. He was actually crying. His body shook, as he rested his head on my shoulder.

"I'm sorry I don't know what's happening to me. Sometimes I try to stop it but..I-I ca-" His voice is muffled but he begins to shake so much that his teeth start to chatter.

I feel so bad for him. Only now I can see his tears, and the actuality of his true feelings.

He lifted his head and looked at me.

Avi's eyes were full of lust, which made a shiver go down my spine. He was desperate.

He takes me by my hips in suprise, pulling me closer to him. What a mood change.

I inhale sharply and take a deep breath. Avi then cups my cheek, pulling my face closer to his. As soon as we inched closer and closer, that's when I stop and look deeply into his green eyes. Avi's eyes shift down to my lips and back up to her eyes. I bite my lip, trying to hold back the tears. I utter the words I never wanted to.

"Fix Me."

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Okay suggestions here.. should I do.... smut? I don't know if all readers would be comfortable with this and I don't want to just throw it the book and leave readers out.

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