My Affair

Chapter 4

I woke up and dreaded the rain outside... I didn't want to do anything. I feel horrible for what I did last night... But is it counted as a sin...I loved it...

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I decided to take a month break from work, Skyping meetings and handling phone calls from around the house. Chris is always out with Wes, Wesley that's his twin brother...but the thing is I don't even see him anymore either...what's wrong with them?...with Chris?... Me??

I can't seem to force myself out of bed...I don't want to go to work...I don't know what he'll do when he sees me. I swear if I ever see that Luke again I'd fall in love with him....

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It is nice spending time at home and relaxing, but its been a month and a half...Chris decided to up and leave me ... Did I do something?... Did he find out? No, he couldn't have...I loved him, I did... I guess he didn't feel the same way...

I spent my last day off, crying hysterically, not doing meetings, or calls...just crying. No eating, no getting out of bed...I thought everything over to see why he'd left me...while I was sleeping! He packed his bags and left...

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I showed up to work the next morning in a new wardrobe, well I guess outfit of choice? I wore a long knee length baby blue skirt, topped with a no sleeve white silky blouse. And heels. Not the best, or worst, but I don't give a shit.

I did the same routine, this time I spent most of my day downstairs setting up for a wedding, and In the dinning hall across, I set up for a baby shower. Two things that put me, in the best! Mood ever! Right after my boyfriend left, yay!

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Thank god I haven't ran into luke at all...I mean...I can't avoid him forever, but I can avoid him now. A whole wedding, and reception, and Baby shower to get done in the matter of 5 hours, with a big staff, is accomplished soon as the big guy walks in...making himself look like a god amongst us peasants...oh please, Lucas... You're not fooling anyone...

We exchanged glances every now and then, but I acted like nothing was bothering me...but it was, I wanted to curl up in the corner and die with what I was feeling...or..or have luke hug me and tell me everything is okay, but its not okay! I'm all alone, and my insides are dying slowly with every dreadful thought