Happiness?

Break up

Sweet.Sour.Cold.Warm. Loving. Hating. Ugh I cant understand this any longer. Why cant i just be treated fairly. They say in every relationship there will be ups and downs. Well in mine there are up, downs, left, right and everywhere s. Maybe its time to just.. cut of the relationship it doesn't get me anywhere.

"Oy, Sierra" i whip round to see Lexi willows leaning against the door frame." Daydreaming again are we" she says slowly strolling towards me.

"What's it to you" I say snarling.

"No need to get all tough on me. I was just trying to help you out." Lexi says smirking.

"With what ,on advice of what NOT to wear cause I've already got that covered." I look at her up and down then give her a satisfied smile. Lexi glares at me then smiles back.

" I was a bit confused at first but now I get it" Lexi says smiling ear to ear

"Get what, smart-ass" I replied still smirking. Lexi took a while to reply but then answered,

"Why Blake is at the back of the school with Lacey Taylor..."

"Doing what!" I interrupted. Lexi smiled .She didn't say any more. She.She didn't have to. I got up grabbed my jacket then ran outside and sure enough I saw Blake standing in the corner with Lacey, holding her and kissing her. I paused tears welled up in my eyes but then I blinked them away. I shouldn't cry. I wouldn't cry. I would stand strong but I would make him pay,of course I would. I yelled out across the campus,

" Oy Blake" He didn't shift nor move. " yo Blake get your hands off the slut and turn around." He whipped around then saw me.

"Whattcha want cant you see I'm busy" He said. I took a breathe in I cant believe he had to nerve to do that.

" Stay busy as long as you want just listen here. Were done." Blake stepped away from Lacey and headed towards me.

"Come on you don't mean that. You're just mad that's all. Calm yourself down."

" And what do you suppose we do now." I yelled.Blake put his hands pocket and smiled.

" You could join us"I went up to him and slapped him hard across the face.

" You sick, sick wasted jerk. Do what you want but i am not getting twisted up in your messed up ruined world."

" Then go. I don't need you. You're getting but chubby round the edges anyway. Might need to get yourself on weight watchers before your jeans split." He says glaring at me. I poked him hard in the chest then said.

" And you might need to get yourself on tic tacs before this mess leaves you to." I said gesturing at Lacey. " I sniffed then reached for pocket and took out a packet of gum. " Here take it, mate. You'll this and a whole aisle of these to make that stank go away." I said then I threw it in his face. Blake grabs my wrist then pulls me close to him.

" You think you are soo cute, don't you. Well ill tell you right here, you ain't nothing but a bi..." I kicked him sharp in the balls.

" What you saying. Sorry cant here you over your sorry crying " i said laughing then I whipped round and walked away. I am many things but i am not a fool i know when he gets up he will not be happy. walking i hear Lacey call out.

" Keep walking. Get all the exercise you can"I turn around and yell.

" oh shut up. At least I ain't no easy troll am I." I watched Lacey's face go red then I walk off feeling satisfied and proud. That didn't last long though. Soon I began to realise what happened but I held all tears back till when I got home.

When I arrived home I went to my room and lay on my bed then it all out. I cried and cried and cried then my eyes were itchy and sore. Then I got my notebook out and entered his name in the book of breakups. Blake Daniels. Another love another lost. Maybe I should make myself immune to feeling. When does it ever go right. My last relationship Matthew smith dumped me he saw my cousin and he started a relationship with her instead. The one before that Harvey Jones said he would only stay with me if id let him get as far as he wanted to but I was not going to fall for one of those guys so i moved on. Now its officially written in the books Blake Daniels made out with Lacey Taylor. Tears fell from my eye but I blinked them away. I've already cried enough. What was the point of going into my relationship? My mum told me not to she warned me that I was to young but I didst listen to her. Maybe if I did I wouldn't feel as vulnerable and weak as I feel now. I wish I didn't feel anything. It always starts with a feeling the I get pulled in. Maybe if I stayed cold. No feeling. No mistake. That's what ill do. No boys going to get near me. Ill stay cold. No matter the cost.