maiya's struggle

chapter one

Her eyes watered, fingers shoved down the back of her throat brain calculating how many calories were in the cereal she just ate.She wiped her eyes forced a smile and walked out of the houses bathroom and got to work at straightening her hair and choosing a outfit. Laid on the bed was a my chemical romance hoodie, skinny black jeans that made her legs look even smaller and her black doc martins she walked back to the bathroom saw her best friend her razor and contemplated ending it. She didnt want to go back not again the mental hospital was hell schizophrenics yelling asperger paitents randomly saying the world was over and the bunch of other teens like me. She leaves the razors, thinks im not two days clean for nothing puts on her concealer eyeliner and mascara along with dark red lipstick and black eyeshadow. She waits at the bus stop being stared at by all the other kids the whispers going round; "shes that creeped that attempted suicide aye" "one time getting ready for pe I swear I saw cuts on her wrist emo" "shes so weird she doesnt even talk." They act like shes not there like she cant hear what they say but every word stings every word is salt in a open wound. Her headphones appear from her pocket and get placed in her ears blasting her favourite playlist drowning out her unneeded emotions. The bus pulls up and she climbs on about 10 minutes into the journey something hits the back of her head, she picks up the paper and reads a solo word "DIE" tears prick in her eyes again as the bus pulls up at school. "Crowds" one of her biggest fears she wonders how the day will end as she bumps head first into a boy her eyes widen tugging the sleeves that flew up, picking up her books and running. His eyes follow her as she runs of and picks up the phone wondering who that was.

A/N first book ever on wattpad dont judge me uploads may be slow but thanks for reading this far already.
-Becky-