Yeah, so what? What if I'm 19 now? What if it stuck with me my entire life so far? What if it was eight years ago? What if I'm permanently scarred and still cry myself to sleep at night just because it flickered through my thoughts for a millisecond that day? What if? Does it matter to you? Do you even care how it feels? Have you ever had to put up with that amount of emotional strain, day after day, week after week, year after year for 4 years straight?
I thought not.
Never have I shared with anyone in so much detail what happened to me in those insignificant 1461 days of my life that I will have to deal with forever. It's not so much to help you, if you get in that situation, but to vent something deep inside me - possibly some sort of recovery process - in which I will be extremely grateful that you listened.
I guess I should start on the very day my nightmares became reality, four years ago, today...
