Pain

I was the one who was blind. Not knowing that my mom was the monster. She's chosen a man with money over her own son, and acted like it wasn't anything just sip her tea. She'd think we'd fall for the guilt trick or the fake crying. I finally realized what my older siblings were saying , and back then I defended her like it was nothing . Now I don't know what to think or how to feel right now. This is what's been going on. Ok my mother fixed up the house and as her son I helped the house looked great. A day passed and the house still looked great. My sister Hope and I didn't stop cleaning the house . My mother comes in the house and starts saying the house is destroyed when everything is fine. So my mom leaves and Hope phone rang and it was my step father yelling saying that we have to leave the house around nine am in the morning and can't come back until they get home. She was laughing in the back ground. It was so ridiculous I laughed he got and hung up the phone. 11:47 at night and I hear the front door open so I pretend to be sleep but he saying Jason get up and take these bags into the room and stay there. He comes up saying get your sisters so I go get Hope but Harmony is in death like sleep and she doesn't live with us. He comes storming in the room and snatched the sheet off my sister. Hope and I give each other that like we about to go beat his ass. Where is our mother you might ask shes standing in a corner sipping her tea. He comes back in his room saying "I want her the fuck out of here" while he is saying that Hope and I are glaring at him and gets even angrier and starts saying " If y'all don't like it get the fuck out too, I don't give a fuck no more". He storms off and leaves. My mother looked as me and said "this could have all been avoided if you did your job." I said "I didn't do shit". She cuts me off "watch who you talking to." " Mother he disrespects us everyday." "No he don't ." I start crying and sayinft no no no don't walk away from me example one when I confessed on what he had done he said I should be on my knees begging kissing her toes for forgiveness but you told me begging is a sin. "If you don't like it Herr so much leave." I look down then look up and walk right passed her. I start packing my stuff up she starts asking questions and saying bullshit. I say out of nowhere " Your only here for his money" her face changed like we caught her whole plan. She gets defensive saying " your only here for his money" "No if I had a place to sleep I'll be good." I left around 12:45 gave my sisters a hug and left. Not so long after both of them meet me and we walked towards me brothers house. I felt my heart turn black,and crack because my mother chose a man with money over her own son