What The Body Wants

The Morning After

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Chapter 23: The Morning After

I don’t know what time it was, but I cried myself to sleep.  The next morning I woke to a pair of strong arms.  I smiled to myself happy that he came back, but pissed off that he left.

I snuggled into him and he wrapped his arms tighter around me.  I laid there relishing his touch, his soft skin, and the way he smells and just feeling all 220lbs lying next to me.

I can’t stop thinking about how I am going to break the news to Shaun that we can’t continue to see each other.  It’s not going to be easy I know, but he has to understand what we had was fun and the sex was all that I have to admit, but I know in my heart that I truly love Kevin.

I didn’t bother to tell Shaun I was going out of town with Kevin and he has been blowing up my phone since we left and I just turned it off.  I don’t mean to ignore him, but now is not a good time to talk to him.

“Morning babe”

“Good morning to you too”

“Sleep well?”

“Yup”

“Listen Kevin, I know you were upset when I told you about Shaun and you have every right to be but the last thing you said to me was a dig and I have to say that you could have yelled and screamed at me, but it wouldn’t have hurt as much as what you said to me before you walked out that door.”

“Nikki, I’m sorry for what I said a part of me wanted you to hurt, then maybe you could understand what I felt after you told me about the affair.  I guess I could have just said nothing and walked out the door, but I wanted my comment to sting and feel like fire coursing through your veins.”

“You have no idea the amount of hurt and humiliation I felt at that moment.  I wasn’t humiliated because you were going out doing all those things; I’m talking about the humiliation of being a man, thinking you are out there working hard to make a future for your family, then be told that you didn’t spend enough time with your girl so she decided to reach out to another man for the attention and the affection she thinks she missing.”

“I admit, I have done things that I shouldn’t have, but it never lasted more than one night.  All it was for me was fucking, there were no feelings involved and I made it very clear that I have a woman and I didn’t want another one this is just carnal pleasure for me.”

“I didn’t want the emotional attachment, so I made sure they understood upfront.  Unlike Grace, we did have a relationship six years just like it is with us.

Before you and I really started dating, I still would see her mostly for sex though.  When we started dating exclusively I told Grace it was over.  She didn’t like it like it but I made it clear that we were done.”

“I took some time last night to really think about the severity of the issue.  I got me a drink and walked on the beach.  I found me a secluded are sat on a rock drinking my drink trying to figure out when and what went wrong in our relationship.

I think I know now what happened; we didn’t communicate enough with each other.  We just assumed that the other one knew how we each felt, but we just didn’t communicate.”

“Kevin, once you left and I couldn’t cry anymore, I realized that you had every right to be angry with me.  I allowed myself to let loneliness get the best of me.  I never wanted to hurt you I just didn’t know how to tell you that I needed to see you, to touch you, to just spend time with me.”

“I admit that I was afraid that you would just tell me what I wanted to hear, but then never do it; I was also afraid that you were starting to lose your love for me.”

“I thought you only proposed to me because I know you want to campaign to run for judge of circuit court and it would look good if you had a wife like you were living a real family life.”

“Nikki you have it all wrong, I do want to have a wife and family. I want you, I want you to bear my children and most of all I want you to love me as I love you.”

“I’m just glad you told me and although I was pretty pissed, I still want you to marry me.  So now that we have resolved this fiasco, let’s go to breakfast and spend the day at the beach.”

The next two weeks went by and we enjoyed everything from deep sea diving, to hanging out at the beach, we learned how to dance to calypso and we even got an opportunity to visit the Cayman Island National Museum

The museum was where we learned about natural and cultural history of the Cayman Islands.  We saw different artifacts and art; it was all so beautiful and amazing.  I enjoyed all the rich history, but Kevin was ready to head back out to the beach so naturally we didn’t stay very long.

We went back to our hotel and I was extremely tired and thought about taking a nap, but of course Mr. Rainey had some other plans for our afternoon.