Contents
Where to start. 3
Chapters of life. 4
Jim and I – The Fairytale: 7
My initial wish. 10
What I wished for I now have. 12
Where to start
Life is funny really if you look back and put the pieces together. We never know our path until it has passed and we see the pieces falling together. Then and only then do we get the “ahhh ha” moment, in well that is why this happened or that happened … because I was supposed to be here.
We can never “what if”, we can never “why me”. It is what it is and it is what it will be.
If I had not been through what I had been through, I would never have met this wonderful person I am with today. Karma is telling me, you need to be patient, it will come to you. I truly have always believed that what you put out there comes back, good or bad, so be careful. It is never in our desired timeline, it is within the timeline it is supposed to be. In saying that you also need to be very careful what you ask for, you just may get it, as you asked for it, literally ….
When something bad happens to me, I do ask, did I do something to make this come back to me like this, if I have not, then it is the will of my path to lead me in the direction I should be in so that something good can happen. It is the lessons to be learned so that we appreciate what we receive.
Chapters of life
I will not go into all the chapters of my life but briefly what brought me to this State , so that I could meet this man. Little did I know what Karma had in store for me.
Marriage:
I had married in my late 20’s. I was not sure about that man, but maybe in my head I thought I better get married, I’m in my late 20’s and no one else ever asked, so married we were. I got pregnant around our 1st anniversary. I was never sure if I wanted children, I loved children but I was young and could hardly feed myself let alone the thought of another mouth, but he said he wanted children, so off we went on our married path.
It was far from what I perceived as marriage, what my mother had said it should be. My disappointment I am sure, shown through. I thought I would have the ideal marriage, the 2.5 kids, I’d be at home taking care of the house, yard, cooking and cleaning. A yellow house with a white picket fence, and dog in the yard. What I got was so far removed from that.
We moved right after we got married to a desert town, where I knew no one. He had friends there and one of his friends and he started a construction business. I did our side of the paper work, the other wife did the payroll.
That situation went down quickly as the housing market crashed in the late 80’s and we were new and small.
We moved to Idaho, to start over. I had family there and felt better knowing someone. Things never got better; it was rocky to begin with in the marriage and continued in its course. It was not meant to be. When we separated I left for Washington as there really was no work in Idaho where I could support myself and my daughter.
Life after Marriage:
I had a boyfriend or two but they did not work out. They were not who I wanted in my life and my daughter did not like them. I knew what I wanted yet kept settling, which does not work.
One day we, she and I met this man and he seemed to be what I was looking for, we dated and eventually all of us agreed to move in together. He had two boys and a “step-daughter” and I had my daughter. They all seemed to get along.
