I don't understand why everyone needs to leave. Why does everyone I let in give me stronger reasons not to trust and more reason to shut everyone out? Why can't just ONE person stay by my side and not hurt me or stab me in the back.
I want to understand what's wrong with me and why no one wants to stay with me. I want to know why everyone breaks their promises and why nothing can go right.
I want to know what I done to everyone I let in that was so wrong. I'm sorry I'm not perfect but I never got second chances. You all left before I could make whatever mistake I made better.
Why is it okay for EVERYONE to just walk out of my life but when it's best for me not to talk to someone for a week or so it's a huge crime and it makes me a bad person?
How can so many people have such cold hearts and the ability to look someone in the eye and tell them they love them and that they'll stay when they know they're going to leave?
How can one person lose so many people and teach themselves to isolate themselves from the world before they even turn 16?
I JUST WANT TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME AND WHAT I DONE TO EVERYONE IN MY LIFE
I just want someone
Anyone
I want to be able to trust again. I don't want to be alone.
It's so cold and empty. Watching so many people live happily with their friends and family whilst I break more inside. I just want to know
Am I a bad person? Do I deserve this?
