Between The Lines Of Feeling And Emotion

Group And Banana Pudding

A/N; typically if it doesn't have Kaz's name at the beginning, It's in Jo's point of view, btw.

Group lasts for about an hour, sometimes two if they're feeling chatty. The chairs are arranged in a semi-circle, almost closed now. I sit in the chair closest to the window, furthest from doctor D, who insists we call him Alfred. Hes a kind man who wears clothes from out of a movie... Like james bond.

Next to him is Maria, an almost severely obese girl who has been here for two years... And has lost about a hundred and fifty pounds since getting here and is almost down to 280. Next to her is samantha, a girl who at first glance seems normal. But the more you dwell you see signs of agitation. See, she has anger problems. After her are Tara and Jess who suffer from Anorexia. Tara came here after her parents found her passed out on the floor. Jess came straight from the hospital after having heart surgery. Then theirs Caleb, who has a drinking problem due to something he never admits. Next to him are Kaz and Jimy. They're inseparable both here for cutting Kaz' brother Dean had her commited for screaming into mirror talking to her reflection,i actually knew her, we played together when we were little, before my dad died in hunting accident with hers. Jimy-who's real name is Albert, but after Kaz deemed him St.Jimy after a song by Green Day, everyone called him that- was locked up when he stole his dads car and drove it into a pole. Then its Austin, who swears he can get addicted to any drug out there, Blair who has a mixture of drug, alcohol and suicidal tendencies sits two seats away from me. Noone sits on the other two seats whitch is fine by me.

Everyones quiet when Alfred clears his throat. "Alright, anyone have anything to say about-" the door swung open. "Sorry I'm late, I was... In the restroom." Luke said, walking in and ploppin into the seat beside me. "Well, hello Double S."

Thats his nickname for me, it stands for super silent. Lukes real name is Lucifer, he got thrown in here for almost

beating his twin brother Michaels head in after he found out Michael broke his guitar. Guy has anger issues, and once he's mad you cant get him to stop unless you sedate him.

"No problem anyway, as I was saying... How was everyones visitation.?" Alfred says, tapping his foot.

It was quiet, so he went fiist explaining about his weekend with his wife, kids and his visit to the zoo, he even had pictures and everything. Way to go OO7, Jo thought.

Jimy says something about his mom stopping by with his cat and kaz mentions playing table tennis with her brothers and Luke's three siblings that came. I move slightly away from Lucifer. Bad move, apparently because Alfred asks me how mine went, but I just stare at the floor. Then its like hell when Maria speaks up, "Ooh, mine was great. You know, since neither of my parents showed up or bothered to call I spent the day watching harry potter and walking around with samantha after her uncle came and we shared a snickers." samantha blushed. She was quiet through alot of sessions. Mostly because she didnt like talking about being so angry.

"At least they gave you an option, darling. I was locked up in jc-whitch, I code for just criminal, whitch is what we call the padded cells-because I "refused" to  eat the disgusting meatloaf." Tara said, jess laughed and they high fived.

"it's not that bad.. I mean at least you get to have food on your plate alot of people dont" Caleb said.

At this point Kaz turned her mp3 player on & everyone heard the soft tones of Led Zeppelin's Stairway To Heaven.

Luke started laughing. "Oh my demons, you're not serious.? Tara, you could literally die any second.. Dont blame the meat loaf's taste. Its not bad. You could always ask for the cake they hide from mrs Debbie two ton."

I just scooted closer to the window, and watched the clouds.

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Kaz stood up. "what the fuck Lucifer.?"

"Oh what like noones thinking it.? Tara and Jess aren't the only ones who stare."

"Fucking leave Maria alone, why are you always banking off of everyone else's shit.? At last shes working through her problems, shes doing amazing-kaz threw a smile at her- instead of being like your little minions, just throwing everything back up once they're sure noones in the restroom and swearing they dont really need the help.!"

Tara apparently had enough."and what about you razor queen.? Why dont you ever talk about the reason behind all the pretty designs in your skin.? What momny never give you enough attention-her eyes focus on the cut accross her upper chest between her throat, barely visible-baby."

Kaz opened her mouth but Jimy had covered it with his hand."oh shut the fuck up you stupid cunt. Kaz is fine.! She hasn't cut in almost a week.! At least she doesnt cut to kill herself.!" Kaz put an arm around Jimy and they had a whispered conversation. Then they both hugged me, whitch was extremely akward. Then kaz kissed Maria on the cheek and they walked out.

They were lucky they were already level three or they would be in serous trouble. Theirs three levels in ocean trees. Level ones, are typically new guests... Or ones who exhibit un-appreciated behavior... -Like lucifer and tara now will be.- aren't allowed to go anywhere without someone there, and the rooms are locked at night. They can't have time in any room but library, study hall and the cafeteria. Level two's, are the ones who have proven they can be trusted, can go wherever they please, with just an escort. And have leniency over everything but the group, study hall or sessions with the doctor. Level threes require no escort, and some are actually escorts for the newer kids in our certain non-permanent residents. They get to choose wether to go to group or not. Most do just to show that they are ready to go home. In jo's opinion, level one is easier. But shes a level two. She has been for five months.

kaz and jimmy left to go to the library for books, before going to the gameroom until lunch. Since it was three hours since breakfast, and they spent way more time here, they were released.

Samantha and lucifer went to anger management.

Maria was taken to the excersize room to get on the treadmill and to talk to her trainer, Mark.

Tara and Jess were shipped off to eat a snack then to the tv room, so they werent tempted to join Maria.

Caleb and Blair go to get drug and alcohol tested then out for a short walk.

Austin and Jo get an escort to the gameroom, where jo is handed the remote to the television that had cable and not games, and caleb started playing madden with a guy from another group.

At twelve thirty the bell sounded for lunch and escorts came in to help move groups in line one at a time. typically groups stuck together, except for the 'hard' cases like lucifer. or if someone was having a bad day and wanted to be alone, everyone was excited... Even Tara and jess. It was banana pudding day. Somehow the snack brought them all together. lunch was going as normal as it could be, I was sitting there, quietly snacking on my pudding and occasioally eating my piece of chicken. Kaz, jimy caleb austin sam and debbie were talking, tara was moving food around her plate and eventually dipping her spoon in the pudding and taking small, tentive licks. Jess was doing the same, although she'd taken a bite from her apple.  It was all gong  well, Until one of the kids from another group, his name was Tom something, yelled food fight. Everyone was subjected to food

flying, and noone could resist joining....

It resulted in everyone being sent to their rooms to be cleaned than escorted to one on one, gropus or in our case, study hall from one to three. Eventually everyone ends up in study hall, some groups have it first thing... Everyone is required to have a minimum of three hours a day, and has to finish the work assigned to them, if not the have private sessions with a tutor.

I sighed internally study hall, the one place where "silence is golden" here. everyone was working, well trying anyway. from the corner of my eye i saw jimy and kaz passing notes, caleb looking at kaz, while samantha played with her pencil  shavings, debbie was eating a snack, the others had their work just splayed out, lucifer was done, but he stayed behing carving something that looked like  a pentagram into the desk, he'd been doing it for as long as she remembered, and it was almost done.  she sighed when tessa stood up, claiming if they wanted a snack, they should speak up before being escorted to their room.

Jo was escorted to get a snack anyway, she got a snack and a drink both then spent the rest of the day in her room, just like everyone else. Even level three "guests" had to be escorted if they wanted a snack or a new book. that tom guy had his luck cut short if he thought he would get away with this, everyone was at least ticked.