I remember you.
I remember how much I loved you.
I remember all of the laughs we shared,
I remember the hours we would spend lying together listening to music.
I remember us headbanging in your room at two in the morning.
I remember the feel of your lips on my skin and the feel of your skin beneath my hands.
I remember waking up to your face smiling down at me as I lay on your chest,
I remember your hair wet from the shower you took while I was sleeping.
I remember staying at yours every weekend.
I remember watching and rewatching and rewatching and rewatching your favourite movies.
I remember you saying you loved me.
I remember being a secret.
I remember every fight with your mother, father, sister, step brother, step father.
I remember you never wanting to talk to my family.
I remember holding you as you cried yourself to sleep.
I remember the look on your face as I lay pale, cold and writhing on the bathroom floor.
I remember you saying I was the only reason you were still here.
I remember all the nights I lay awake consumed with worry that you wouldn't make it till morning.
I remember all the times you carved lines into your skin, every single one of them etched into my brain.
I remember wanting to leave you but being too afraid that you would be found cold and limp in your room the next day.
I remember of all the things I was willing to do for you, give up for you, and put myself through for you.
I remember saying goodbye.
I remember leaving our group of friends so that you didn't have to.
I remember hating myself for being the one that hurt you
I remember you pretending like none of it ever happened.
I remember you.