Save Me.

A Voice.

Have you ever experienced a dark thought that consumes your mind as you think of it? On how to accomplish it? Then you hear a booming, dark voice in the back of your head that screams, "Do it." repeatedly til you sit in complete isolation with your hands on your head, rocking back and forth slowly.

I have. This voice has plagued my thoughts since I was 13. It invaded my innocence the day my father and I would never see each other again. He, as the voice likes to be called, dug unseen nails deep into my thoughts til he made me cry with the pain. The only thing that would stop the pain was the urge to pick up the sharpest knife in the kitchen. I resisted many times but the unbearable pain drove me to finally pick it up and walk outside where the bastard of my father was laid out cold from drinking for the past week. He smelled horrible, like piss and stale beer along with cigarettes and sweat. God, how this man who fathered me disgusted me. How I hated to be his son. I could say that I was going to enjoy this in a way that meant I'd finally be able to rid myself of a crappy father.

The voice, who we will call Richard for the time being, whispered to cut his throat, so my dad could choke on his own blood. I did it. I slit the bastards' throat and he tried to open his eyes but I started to kick his face in with my size 13, black supras. With every kick, an animal-like growl came from deep within my throat and I laughed. I laughed like a deranged clown. While I was laughing and kicking his face in, my mother has locked the doors and called the police, shaking, crying and trying to explain what she saw her young son was doing in her thick Hispanic accent. When she finally managed to explain, the operator alerted 3 squad cars to our quiet neighborhood. They busted into the backyard, I had already hopped the concrete wall and escaped, but before I left, I had written on the window with my father's blood, "Save me."

*Hopefully if I get some reads, I'll write more up. I'm liking the way it's playing out so far. Thanks for reading and hoping you enjoyed it so far.