SAMCRO Girl

Gain

The sound of motorbike engines woke me up, two months had gone by since my baby girl went missing, 1 week since the guys had rushed off to New York after we got a tip that Sophia was there, Gemma had gone with them to pick her up and I was left with Chibs and Tig to carry on with business back here. I had mix emotions, I hadn't seen my baby in two months. I was excited,nervous and angry. At the end of the day my baby will be back in my arms. That sound of motorbikes was my hope, they were back, she was back. Excitedly I hopped out of bed and ran out the door, butterflies fluttering in my stomach, I saw Juice walking towards the car that had pulled up, taking the baby out of the car he walked towards me, I couldn't keep it in anymore I ran toward Juice, as I got there his smile grew, passing my child to me, she immediately smiled. These months of dying inside, the thoughts about her not remembering me all flew away, my baby remembered me. Today was about celebrating, celebrating my child's return.
"To Sophia and her safe return" Gemma called out, raising a champagne glass and clinking it with everybody else's
"To Sophia" they all chanted, as the party grew on we all celebrated, not for one minute did I let Soph out of my site.
"So mum, how does it feel" I heard a voice behind me, he had been my rock the past few months, we had forgotten about what he had done, and we were actually getting along.
"Sad actually, she's grown so much and I missed it" I answered stroking, the now full head of hair "but happy I have my cute little baby back" I answered kissing her cheek
"She's really starting to look like her mummy,aren't you dahling" he said in his southern accent as o just laughed with him.
"Hey look, Thankyou juice, for everything, I'm glad you were there for me"
"It's nothing" he said stroking my cheek "anyway, I need to go get things sorted, see you around" he said, we obviously got caught up in a moment we weren't emotionally ready for.

i decided to head upstairs, this whole day had been exaughsting, the adrenaline had taken it out of me, made me weak. I knew i had to be strong...strong for my little girl. When i got upstairs i sat Sophia infront of me, i wanted to look at her. Take everything in. Her eyes had started gaining color, they were deep blue and her sandy brown hair was growing she was larger than before,but not considerably larger. however much she had changed, she was my baby and nothing would change that, i decided letting go of her was not an option. as i was deep in thought the tapping at my door was distant, i didn't realize it until Sophia gurgled and snapped me out of my trance. I walked up to the door and standing there in front of me was Juice, Wearing a white plain T-shirt and jeans, he didn't have his cut on, it didn't matter it didn't change him at all. He walked in the door smiling goofily at Sophia "Hey i just wanted to see how this lil' girl was handling life" he said, i passed her over to him "she's good, starting to settle back in" he smiled and cradled the baby he spent the last two months looking everywhere to find my girl, his connection to her was strong and he loved her, it was obvious. "when everything is settled, i would like to see you, speak to you" he said smiling, i nodded knowing if i had said anything i would burst with enjoyment at that.

Juice had laid down with me and Soph for some time but then he left to go do some club business. I bathed Sophia and went to find her something to wear I had a few 3-6 month baby grows from Christmas, so I fished one out and changed Sophia's diaper and put her in her baby grow. I managed to cradle her before she fell asleep in my arms, I didn't want to fall asleep myself, I just wanted to take everything in, everything was perfect, i had my baby back and Juice and i were getting to where we wanted to be, slowly, but we were getting there.
Obviously I fell asleep, I woke up to the screams of Sophia, panicked I looked around, she wasn't in my arms. I peered in her cot and there she was screaming. So overwhelmed I started crying, the tears just started pooling In my eyes. I scooped Sophia up and cradled her in my arms. No matter how hard I tried the tears kept spilling. Suddenly it was dark, yet again I was falling. Falling into oblivion.