You were mine once

Sick with jealousy Chapter 18

I get sick to my stomach thinking about you talking to other girls. Its feels like a sharpened blade slices through my body seeing the evidence of you talking to other girls. When I am drunk, you always seem to text me back and I cope through those rough nights knowing there maybe is something there between us. You're always there but also absent all the time. I try to ignore it but its impossible when we are talking all day long. We have been talking for months. Since the start of the year and yet here we are with me being jealous and crawling into this dark corner where you cant even see. You sent me something once. It was a screenshot of text messages that were similar to conversations we have had before. That small gesture of thinking about me in a regular day and you sending it to me. Beautiful. Some times you text me at 1 am and say how much you want me but in reality how much do you actually? Im attached to you and I have tried to cut it off but you always come back. Maybe not in a big way but we end of talking again and as much as its pains me, I crave your name flashing on my phone. And on the weekends seeing you are going to be sleeping at your house gives me a sence of comfort knowing you arent hanging with other girls and I guess thats why I figure I want you as all mine. But that just isnt the case is it?