I was at a party for the boys release of Made In The AM. Me and all the girls were laughing having a great time. It was getting late so I thought I find Niall and go home. Than I see him with his tongue down some blonde sluts throat. I ran out of the house, to my car, and left. I drove out of town to a place I haven't seen before. I found a decent looking hotel and payed in cash. I didn't want to go back. I couldn't. I looked at my phone. I have 30 missed texts from the girls and 70 from Harry who was my older brother. And almost 46, 47, 48 from Niall he kept blowing up my phone so I chucked it at the wall. It broke into a million pieces. I was tried, broken, and hurt. I walked into the bathroom to take a look at my self and I noticed my red puffy eyes. I looked down and saw a razor. I told my self no I couldn't go back down that path. But pain over came me. I spelt out WORTHLESS on my arm. Than cleaned up and just crashed.
It's been 4 days since the day with Niall. I didn't go back I couldn't. I thought I need to do something, to say, so I payed and left the hotel for good. I drove till I saw a hair salon. I walked in and said can you lighten my hair until it's blonde? The lady walked over to me and messed with my long brown hair. She said "Ya, go take a seat over there. I was wearing the same dress and heels but I had my jacket on so no one could see my cuts. She came back and worked on my hair.
*3 hours later*
She straighten my hair for me, free of charge. I payed and left. I saw a cute little store and walked in. I decide to change my look completely. I bought a few new dresses and went to a restaurant and changed in the bathroom than left. I decide to dive home and "face the music". I got home, brushed my teeth, washed my face, and fixed my self up alittle than walked back out in my new dress and flats with my camera. Photography had always been something relaxing to me. How there is beauty in everything. I walked around town and took some photos. I came across this little cafe and took a few pictures, than went inside. I didn't even notice Niall and boys sitting in the back. They all look up and over at me. I saw them after a few minutes and freaked out inside. Niall came up to me and hugged me to tight. It felt so wrong. He pulled back.
"I was worried sick where have you been? New hair?" He said. I didn't know what to say, so I spoke In Kazakh since they haven't heard me speak my original language before.
"мен сені танимын ба? {Do I know you}" I said.
"What?"
"мен сені танимын ба?"
"Oh, sorry, wrong person. Haha. You just look an awful like the girl I'm in love with. Sorry." He said politely rubbing the back of his neck.
I couldn't take this anymore I ran fast. I got home and cried my self to sleep. I later woke up to pounding on my door I opened the door and there stood Louis.
"Hey I need to show you something..." He told me. I wondered what this something was exactly. We walked down the hall and into a room. I couldn't see if anyone was in the room or if there was anything in the room.
He moved over and I noticed Niall sitting on a bed. Louis than closes the door.
"I didn't mean to cheat on you!" Niall started. "I didn't cheat on you! This 'fan' came up and asked me for a hug and I said okay than she kissed me!! I'm lost without you..." I knew he was lieing by the way he rushed everything together.
"What really happened?" I responded crossing my arms over my chest. He sighed deeply.
"I was drunk... And I kissed her till Louis saw you run out. That's when Louis slapped me and told me. Then, I saw what happened. I'm sorry..." I was standing in front of him in my yoga pants and a tank top. I than noticed my arms and ran. I grabbed my jacket and put it on before he came into my room.
"Stop with all the running!" He giggled.
"Uh... Sorry... I... Was cold..." He looked at me and than got a smirk on his face. He came closer I back up he grabbed me and started to tickle me I was kicking and laughing and than he took my jacket off.
"Haha, now what's really going on?" That's when he saw my arms. I got up to reached for my jacket but he stopped me. "Is this because of me?" I nodded and he fell. I walked into my closest and found an old box. I sat it on my bed and he got up. "What-What are you doing"
"I found it." I said. I handed him my grandfathers pocket watch. He looked at me.
I'm "Forgiven?"
"Forgiven. Just don't let it happen again." He knew that when I was 12 and lost my granfather and how it broke me so he knew that this was a big deal. "Under one thing, though." He looked at me.
"Okay, anything." He said. I looked up at him-with me being shorter and all.
"Don't ever hurt me again. Ever! Or I'm gonna go all blank space on you're ass!" He laughed and hugged me close saying "Never, ever, ever again. By the way, baby were perfect."
