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Lonesome [Eren Jaeger]

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Her mood has changed drastically. Just a few weeks ago, she was so happy. She was practically gleaming sunshine. It was the happiest she has been since forever! Now it seems like the bright happy in her was sucked out and tossed into a garbage disposal of darkness.

"[Name], please. We can talk about this. I love you, and you know that. This won't change a thing. I swear." I tried to comfort her in every way possible, but she didn't want to budge. She was sickly pale, and her body frame looked thinner everyday. Even though she was eating.

"Eren, please. I can't. I'm sorry."

I held her hand. Her voice sounded broken. It broke a while ago, but it seems to get worse. Almost like a forced croak. I kissed her hand. "[Name], we need this. I don't want you to be like this."

She shook her weak head "no." I sighed and kissed her forehead. "Okay, think about it. I want you to get the help you need."

I left the room she was sitting in. Every day since that day, she stared out the window. Or wrote in a journal. She knitted sometimes or read, but she lost motivation for anything having to do with socializing. Some days, she didn't even come to the dining room for meals, and I would have to go give her her food.

Shutting the door, I made my way into the room [Name] had abandoned several weeks ago. We spent a lot of time on this room, painting and decorating. It was [Name]'s pride and joy, her life, her everything.

She had been waiting forever since we have started being a couple. Now her dreams came true, yet...

They were destroyed instantly.

I opened the door and sighed when I was greeted by the pink tinted walls. The elephant-themed room smiled back as if nothing had ever harmed their lives. I looked down and sat on the rocking chair by the crib.

[Name] had hoped for this day to come. She wanted a daughter so much, and all of this had gone to waste.

I closed my eyes and remembered that day. If only I hadn't... If only I had been more careful...

None of this pain would have filled my wife's life.


It was dark that night. We were driving home after shopping for the nursery. We were excited to have this baby, and [Name] was four months pregnant. She was anticipating the baby's arrival that she couldn't stop talking about all of the things they would do together.

"I hope that Kazuki will be a happy baby with your eyes. Your eyes are really pretty, Eren." [Name] held her husband's hand, and he squeezed it back.

"Why my eyes? Your eyes are just as beautiful. Our baby will be a beautiful child, and you know that."

"Of course, I do." I turned and saw her smile, but then...

That one look away, and everything changed.

Another car had hit us, and we had a horrible accident. The other driver wasn't severely injured, and neither was I. [Name], on the other hand, had internal bleeding in her stomach.

She was rushed to the hospital, and the doctor had to make the split decision to abort her baby and rid [Name] of her uterus to save her from dying. I remember the doctor coming up to me saying, "I know that this will hurt [Name] and you a lot, but the baby and her uterus must be removed for us to perform surgery on her stomach. Since her baby isn't fully developed at its nine months, we have to remove her to save your wife. I'm sorry."

I felt horrible. I had made that decision to have the baby removed to save my wife. It was selfish doing so, and now [Name] can't even have children anymore.

I live with that now.


After sulking and remembering the horrible event, I returned back into the bedroom. [Name] wasn't in her bed anymore nor was she in the room. I began to panic.

"[Name]! Please don't leave me anymore!"

I ran to the living room, hoping that she was there. She was, thankfully.

I approached her and hugged her. "God, [Name]... Don't leave me please..."

She touched my hand, caressing it gently. "I'm sorry, Eren," she whispered.

"Sorry about what? [Name], I love you. Don't scare me again."

[Name] hugged Eren. "I don't know anymore..."

"Know what, [Name]? Tell me, please?"

Burying her head into his chest, [Name] let out a few tears. "I can't live anymore."

I wasn't sure if I was ready to let go another

~End: Lonesome~

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