MISTAKES 2 (Tronnor fanfic)

#11 Someone I used to know

TROYES POV

I couldn't take the pressure. He knew? Was he angry? Much angry or a bit? What did he know? I splurted;
"I'-I'm so sorry! Connor I didn't mean to do it! I feel so bad! Please..." I tried hugging him but he just pushed me away with angry tears in his glassed eyes.

"Stop, Troye! Don't touch me..."
I felt horrible. I knew I should have just
Jumped? From the bridge?
told him right away. I felt this lump in my throat as I just stood there and stared at the ground.
"Why, Troye?" He finally whispered.
"I-I don't know! I'm sorry, C-Connor! You know I wouldn't do it on purpose, please!!" I started crying quietly and he just walked away, holding back tears.
"I can't trust you. Neither can anyone else." He grabbed Levis hand and Petra followed him. He had the car outside and I watched the few luggages being carried to the trunk of the car.
The door slammed close and I felt this piercing pain in my hear, just as if my blood was replaced to small nails that moved inside my veins and my body.

I had hurt Levi though.

It was all me. That's the worst part of it. It was all.
Me.

I fell to the floor crying and staring at the closed door behing my tears as I felt my world tumble down in gigantic pieces, hitting the ground as my tears flowed.
This ice cold silence flowed trough the whole house, like a freezing, mean breeze on a cold, dry winter morning, leaving the rooms with a icy frost, silence, that looked down on me and pointed the finger on me, making me shame and hate myself even more.

What would I do without him? Where would I go?

I saw black, blurry faces and slowly fell asleep right there where I was. Lying on the floor of this big, cold house.

I woke up again at 11 pm. It was dark outside and I felt like I had to drown this loneliness and shame somewhere.
The bar.

I took my car and drove in the dark, only small lights shining my way to the bar full of heartbroken people or heart breakers.
I walked in slowly and made my way to the bar, ordering a beer.
I felt this strange feeling that something was happening right now.

Like someone I knew was here.

Soon I felt a hand on my shoulder and I gasped of horror and terror that flew past my mind.
Tyler.

"Hi? Troye is that you?"
I felt my throat swell from anxiety.
Say something, god damnit!

"T-Tyler? I didn't expect to see you here. Weren't you meant to be in prison?"
He laughed and sat beside me. He looked a bit buffer, kind of kinder and hot.

"Yeah. I was being good, though. I was let out 3 months ago. Sorry for everything though."
I smiled at him. I didn't know if it was fake or real.

"That's okay... I guess."
He drank a little bit more of his beer and landed it on the table with a small knock. "So. You're with that Connor guy still?"

I felt angry. What should I say? Should I lie? Did I even know if I was with him? I looked at my finger quickly and slid the ring to my back pocket.

"C-Connor? Who? Oh, that guy. Noo, that didn't work out well..."
He rised his eyebrows and let out a small Huh.

"Want a another beer?" He asked while ordering one to himself.
"Sure."

After many beers and laughing, I started feeling really drunk.
Tyler was sitting on the sofa.
I thought to myself that I want something fun... Now.

Everyone was partying and drunk already. Who cares? I sat on his lap and started thrusting myself on him slowly, and I heard him moaning a bit. I bit my lower lip and closed my eyes as I started opening his shirt, then kissing him, and everything started getting blurry.......

I wake up. I can't see much, my vision is blurry. My head hurts. How much did I drink last night?
Where am I? In my bed? I think so. It's soft at least.

I groan and stretch a bit until I get to a sitting position and freeze. I can feel myself getting paler and paler.
I'm in a bed.
It's not my bed.
I'm naked.
There's a man beside me.

"Woah... Good morning, beautiful!"

Tyler.
Fuck.

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Hey you all!
I'm so sorry for not posting.
I've been feeling really bad lately.
But yesterday I felt much better. Today too.
Because I finally came out to my mom.
I'm pan!! c: Surprise!

Hope you all have a good day. I will try to post more. Love you all a lot.
~ida ✨❤️