Nerd By Day

Prologue

***********The picture is the bonfire that April went too⬆***********

It all started when I had to move to Georgia with my brother. Their were to many things happening so we couldn't stay their any more. Every time I go to bed I have the same nightmare as always. I've had since I was 7 years old.

Every time I have the nightmare it's always the same as that "night". I always wonder if I'm going to wake up one day and forget that day. I haven't been myself since I was 7. I try my best to not show it, I still take care of my daughter. She's my sister but I have taken care of her since she was born. I introduce her to everybody as my daughter.

They either tell me I'm a slut or just beat me because of it. I really don't care and I won't say she's my sister. She treats me if I was actually her mother. I've always been their for her I would never let anything happen to her. If it came to that point that she wouldn't forgive me I would kill myself. That would be the worst day of my life if that did happen. It wouldn't happen I wouldn't ruin her life like mine is.

When Allison went to bed I couldn't take it any more so I went out. The first time I ever went out was when I was 10. That was only 3 years since my mom died. That day that I went out it was at least already 12 in the morning. I never thought I would go this far but I did. It also wouldn't be the last nor it would be the dumbest thing I've ever done in my life.

******Flashback*******

That day that it happened I went out with some friends I couldn't take it any more. I knew I shouldn't but I did anyways. I took a shower than I got out and looked at all my scars I have on my body. I got dressed in black skinny Jeans and a navy blue undershirt and and a black top cut. I put on black vans. Before I headed out I went to make sure that Allison was in bed and sleeping.

When I got outside I got into my dark gray mustang. I've had it since I was 14 years old. I went to go find some of my friends at the bond fire by the lake. When I got their they were already their. "Hey April how's that pathetic sister of yours". DON'T EVER SAY THAT AGAIN and with that I pushed him towards the fire.
I was so pissed, he was on fire. But how I didn't even push him that hard. He was just pissing me off I don't like anybody saying stuff about my daughter. I never meant to hurt any body. With that I was asked to leave and charges would be pressed against me if I didn't leave the town. With that I knew I had to go back to my home town. And live with my brother he's 25 year's old.

       That day that I left with Allison was when Anthony told me that I was adopted. That was the first time my eyes ever changed. My eye color is Icy blue and they turned into a violet purple. Even though it was the first time they ever changed color. I wasn't afraid I felt safe but I couldn't describe it.

Why did my birth parents not want me was I not good enough for them. Since that day I've hated them all my life it was by fault I was worthless to them. That's when I decided that I was going to move with Allison to not be in the situation of that no body loved me and it would be easier if I just excepted. The only thing I had to worry about was taking care of Allison.

Their was only one thing I was 10 years old. So we moved in with my aunt. We moved out and started a new life just Allison and I. I got a job and started working I went to school. I was known as the nerd because I always did what I was asked. And did all my homework the reason I was like this was because. It would be the only way to make a future for Allison and I.
I never thought I would be going home to were I wasn't wanted or I wasn't loved the way other kids were loved by their parents. Not even my adopted parents loved me but they were the closes thing that I had as family. My brother Anthony has always hated me. Now he Hates me more he accuses me of killing our parents.

I always told him it wasn't my fault. Since that day he told me that I've always felt guilty inside. I've asked him that if you think I killed our parents than what did I do to kill them. When ever I asked that he would always say you know what you did. The only think I remember from that day is being inside the house and it was burning.

That's when she tried to get me out but I didn't want to. Then I saw a piece of wood hit her in the head. And the flames took her. I was burned but I could cover it up. I got burned on my foot and legs. Before I blacked out I saw a fireman pick me up and headed out of the fire. That's what my nightmare is mostly about. But theirs more to it and I've never understood it.
The only reason my brother is letting me stay with him is because I told him I would pay all the bills. He agreed to it but I could tell that he still hated me and it Will never go away.

***End Of Flashback***

It's been 2 weeks since that bond fire. They gave me 4 weeks to pack and leave. Right now I'm trying to pack Allison's stuff. Basically just her clothes and some other stuff.

We would have to leave the rest of the stuff because we would have to go on airport. For the safety of Allison we left 2 weeks before we had to. I wasn't going to let anything happen to Allison. We grabbed our stuff and headed to the airport. When we got their we sat down until they called Georgia is about to leave grab yours things and head to the gate.

To give them your tickets please and thank you. We headed to the gate and gave the lady our tickets. We stepped in the plane and found a seat to sit at. When we arrived we would have to get a taxie to take us to his house. It was was our parents house they died in the cabin they had a few miles away from the house.

When we got their I knocked on the door. After a minute or 2 he answered the door. He said come in also their are some rules that you have to follow if you want to live here.

1st you will not come through this door or exit it again. You will use the back door. 2nd their is no laughing, gigging, makeing any noise what so ever. 3rd you are only allowed in the basement which is were your room is going to be. Their is a bathroom. You may only go through your room and the way out the back door. 4th I don't want ya to talk to me ever and 5th you will obey all these rules unless you want to be kicked out. Last you will pay for all the bills understand.