I woke up that morning and looked at my phone. There was three missed calls and eight messages. Michael (heart emjoi):" Hey sorry something came up."
Michael (heart emjoi) :" You might not be awake that's fine but I promise I will make it up to you."
Michael (heart emjoi):"I'm so sorry let me tell you what happened over coffee." And five more just like it.
Me to Michael:" Does that offer for coffee still stand?" Michael not even a minute later:" Yes, please where do you want to meet?"
Me:" There's a StarBucks about a mile from my cabin I will be there in a hour." I didn't look at my phone past that point so any other texts I might receive were forgotten, as I went into the bathroom. I changed then did light makeup threw on my galaxy 'vans off the wall' snapback and went and got in my car.
I walked into StarBucks and grabbed a coffee. It was about twelve when I got there. I know what most people would say ,'that's too late for coffee' but I don't think so. I sat down in a empty seat, pulled out my Iphone and went onto instagram . I waited for about three minutes before he walked in. Without saying anything to me he went and got in line, so I just looked back down at my phone. He pulled up a chair next to me, because he was so 'cool' to use that one that was right in front of me. He didn't say anything for about a minute then muttered under his breath ' I'm sorry' so quite I barely heard him. I grew up with three brothers so hearing it even muttered was a good thing. I didn't know what to say because I didn't want to say 'it's okay' because it wasn't so I just sat there silent. "Something came up." He said looking at the floor as he played with his coffee lid.
"Like what?" I asked, looking at him, more so the top of his head because he was looking at the ground. "Something." He said. "I know we haven't been going out long but come on. " I said as I sipping on my coffee.
"My ex girlfriend." He said. "Really." I said not being a question at all. I got up I wasn't doing this again, I've been down this road before and I'm not doing it again. He stood up and followed me outside. "No, no it's really not like that. She..um committed suicide." He said turning towards me. "Michael I'm so sorry." I said hugging him tightly. "I..just she was..." He got lost in his words. "Look at me," I said holding his face in my hands," I promise it'll be okay." I said with a light smile. "Thank you." He said with a little smile back. "Anytime." I said smiling again hoping it would make him feel better," how long did you date her?" "For almost two years. We broke up late last year. Her parents didn't like me, so we broke up and we talked for a little while, then we lost contact." He said, looking as though a tear was forming on his left eye. "Did you love her?" I asked taking his hand in mine, as I looked into his eyes. "I don't know, she was my first girlfriend and she meant the world to me," he said," Man I can't believe she's gone." The tear rolling down the side of his face. "Was it all of a sudden?" I asked wiping the tear away. "She cut for a while they found but other than that I don't know." He said more tears forming.
"I'm sorry." I said trying to comfort him but I didn't really know how. I mean what do I to help?
"Thank you. " He said. "You're welcome." I said. "Would you like to try that date again?" He asked. "Yes I would love that." I said. "Okay I'll pick you up at seven. " He said smiling. "Okay. I'll see you then." I said walking down the road. "Okay." When I got back to the cabin and saw a note from the girls' hey went to the beach be back later' it was around three and I didn't really have to do much I mean I to change and stuff but that would only take a hour or so. So I changed into sweatpants and one of my old oversized t-shirts, and hopped on the couch and started flipping through channels. I got up and grabbed my phone, I saw a text from Michael:' Can I come over?' I texted back saying sure and within minutes he was there. I looked down before opening the door ,seeing I was wearing sweats and my hair was in a messy (which messy was a understatement) bun. "One second." I said trying to fix my hair, it was a lost cause. I opened the door as I tried to hid my hair, which probably because I was in pajamas my hair probably wasn't my biggest problem.
"Hi." He said.
"Hi," I said, "so why did you need to come over?" I asked." I mean I don't mind but.. you know. " " It's her parents." He said sitting on the couch. " What about them?" I asked sitting next to him. "They are blaming me for Ashley's death." He said. "Wait what how?" I asked taking his hand. "I ..they think it's me. " He said letting go of my hands, then rubbing his hands together as I could tell they were getting sweater. "That you l killed her?" I asked rubbing my arms around his, scooting closer to him. "No that I told her to kill herself or something." He said. "That's crazy. You wouldn't do that." I said. "I don't know." He said still looking at the ground. "Hey look at me." I said taking his face in my hands.
"Yeah?" He asked looking into my eyes. I didn't say anything I looked into his eyes. He smiled lightly, still looking into my eyes he slowly leaned in and kissed me, as if on cue savannah and Katie walked in. I jumped away from Michael and stood up. "I thought you said you guys would be at the beach all day. " I said. "Yeah we thought we would come back early." Katie said. "Oh, okay." I said walking towards the kitchen. "Yeah." Katie said. "Michael, you want something to eat?" I asked opening one of the cabinets. "Um..no thanks I'm good." He said getting up and walking towards me. "Okay." I said turning around facing him and putting my hands on his face, as I smiled.
"I should getting going I'll see you at seven." He said walking towards the door. "Oh okay, goodbye. Text me if you need anything." I said as I closed the door behind him. It wasn't even four when he left, so I just laid back on the couch. After about two hours I got up and I looked in the mirror and jumped back as I saw my hair not to mention my makeup less face. I took my hair down and saw it was curly and fluffy at the bottom, look a little like a eighties hair style. I grabbed my straighter and turned in on 450 then went to go get my clothes I grabbed my favorite band t-shirt, my black skinny jeans and my converse. After I fixed my hair and did my makeup it was around six thirty, I jumped on the couch with my black nail polish in hand. "Hey." Michael said as I opened the door at seven on the dot. He was dressed in a black t-shirt which was mostly covered in a blue plaid shirt. He had darkish jeans with flopped over his Black and Tan NIKEs with black laces. "Hi." I said smiling, welcoming him into the cabin. "You look great." He said. "Not too bad yourself." I said. "Should we go?" He asked holding out his arm in the cheesy 'movie' kind of way.
"Yes, thank you." I said excepting the cheesy yet cute gesture. We went to dinner had a really nice meal, as we talked about random little date stuff, paid, then got back in the car. He took me home when we got there all four of the girls were there and gave Michael the 'if you mess with my best friend you're going to die' look. "Goodnight Michael." I said kissing him quickly. "Can I see you outside for a minute?" He asked. "Um..sure." I said. "Um..me and my buddies are going to be at the beach around twelve tonight if you want to come. " He said. "Yeah sounds good." I said. I put a piece of my hair behind my ear then looked up at Michael. He looked down at me and smiled.
I got on my tiptoes and kissed he, he wrapped his hands around my waist and we kissed till someone opened the door. It was savannah she told me my mom was calling so I said ' I'll see you later' to Michael and headed in. I looked at my phone to find no missed calls or even a call at the moment. I looked at them confused. "We needed you in."
"Why?"
"Because we need to tell you we found out Michael's cheating on you." Riley said looking down at her hands a she sat on the couch. "Oh no there's no way." I said. "Just don't look outside. " Savannah said as I jumped up and looked out the window. I saw Michael kissing a girl. I froze I didn't know what to think. Why would he do this? Was I not good enough for him? We haven't been dating more than a month and he's cheating, what happened? I rushed outside after all those question left my mind. The girls quickly told me they were heading out again I told them I would be fine then, I walked up to him. He froze as I did when I saw him. "What the heck?" I asked looking at him with tears filling into my eyes. "Taylor...I..I'm..I." He stopped as the girl looked at me then him. "Who's this babe?" She asked putting her hand on his shoulder. I just looked at her then him. I stood there for a minute, not a word was said. I turned around and run back to my cabin in full blown tears, I was balling. I got back to the cabin slammed the door, and went to the kitchen grabbed one of our knives and went to our bathroom. I sat on the floor thinking about what happened. I sat there for about three minutes then decided I had enough I grabbed the knife and slide it across my arm. What blows my mind is we are told at a young age 'don't play with knives you'll get hurt' here some of us are cutting almost every night slowly killing ourselves. But sadly nobody cares. I slide it across up and down my arm, then he walked in. Michael standing there pale in the face looking down at my arm, covered in blood, then at my face as I was balling and my makeup was running down my face. I tired wiping it away so he couldn't see but he saw. "Taylor." He said after a minute or two. He got down on his knees, looked at me again then got up. He grabbed a washcloth, picked me up and sat me on the counter. He lifted my chin up, I had been rubbing my hands together, he took my hand in his. "Why?" I asked as a tear ran down my face.
"It's a long story." He said as he placed the washcloth on my arm. It burned a lot it's a indescribable feeling of pain. I clenched onto his shirt as I bit my lip at the pain. "I got time." I said.
"That's my ex's sister. "
"Really making out with your dead ex girlfriend's sister?" I asked not realizing how insensitive that was till I had already said it. "No it's not like that." He said as he went up higher on my arm. "Then..OW..tell me." I said. "She was missing her sister and she asked if we could meet about three days ago..I wanted to be there her." He said. "You could've been there for her without making out with her. " I said. I know..It only happened once." He said as he put the washcloth down beside me and put his hands on either side of me." Sorry I probably lead her on. I didn't have the heart to tell her about you."
"Promise?" I asked.
"Yes please forgive me and give me another chance. " He asked looking into my eyes. "Okay." I said as I put my hands around his neck. He picked me up bridal style and then carried me to my bed. He put me down and awkwardly stood there. " Can you stay?" I asked. "Yeah su..sure." He said. I patted the bed beside me and he smiled and walked over. He laid down next to me and I cuddled up to him. I feel asleep within minutes. I woke up around three am and looked over at Michael to find him still awake. 'I love you' I heard him mutter. "What?" I asked. "You heard me." He said then passed out.
