Different But Loved

Chapter 9

My head feels so light it feels as if I'm high on drugs. My drugs, it's like I'm floating in the air but with pain. I feel like little pin needles are poking my entire body. My heart rate is racing that I can hear my heart beat in my ears.

Earlier that night

"Maya... We're only doing this because we love you don't think nothing else about it." My mom, dad, and I are sitting in my bedroom. I look to see my dad but he can't even look at me.

Did I do something wrong?

My mom walked towards me and took a seat next to me as my dad sat on the chair near my desk."You're going to be living with Iwan." My mom says. I didn't know what to do. Are they kicking me out of the house?

I felt like crying."Iwan? Why." Why would I be living with Iwan? Unless I did something really bad that I didn't notice. I try to remember what I did but nothing comes to my head. I must of been zone out or maybe I forgot what I did like always.

"Mom I didn't mean to do what I did. I'm sorry for making you mad for whatever I did that upset you." I held her hand as tears made their way down my face. "I just don't want to leave." I sob.

She looks at her hands and quickly inhale as if she's about to cry. "No baby you didn't, Maya didn't do anything wrong..... Iwan. Iwan is going to be your.... husband."

"What?" I look down at my hands. What do you do if your mom tells you that you are going to have a husband?

"It's for your protection baby." My dad says as he sits near me. "We want to keep you safe and away from harm."

"When will I leave?" I whisper, not making any eye contact. My legs tremble underneath me and I just wanted to be left alone.

"By the end of the week." She hugs me and I hug her back. "It's okay baby, Iwan said that we are welcome to go visit and he will let you come and visit us too!"

People can't make me marry someone I don't love. Can they? I know they did that back than but do they still do that now?

Yes

I'm still in my room. No one has bother to come in and comfort me. I don't know why people think that leaving some alone is what they want. I mean I did want to be alone but that was three hours ago. Is it because everyone is asleep or they don't want to see me.

I can tell that no one is asleep, or am I wrong?

It's just that they think you need more time.

Well it's not for me. I hate being alone. I can't stand it. Ever since that day I can't bare to be alone. I feel that they might pop out of no where and kill me.

"Maya?"

My thoughts are cut off by Jason voice.

"Jason." I say. "Are you angry at me?" I quickly stand up.

I see him walk in my room with a frown on his face. He doesn't make eye contact with me. He keeps his eyes focus on my carpet floor. He hugs me for a while before telling me to sit down on the bed.

"No not at you Maya, at mom and dad. They know how much I love you and they are taking you away from me."

"I love you too Jason." I say and look out of the window.

Jason standing in front of me he gets down on both of his knees not taking his eyes from mine. "Do you mean it Maya?" He looks at me with his eyes that show sadness. I take his hands and hold them.

"I do Jason. I love you with all my heart. You mean everything to me." He hugs me and I could feel his entire body relax against mine. 

He gets up and he guides me to my bed. We lay down together like we always do whenever I have a nightmare.

His arm snake around my waist as he pulls me closer to him. I lay my head against his chest. I have my right arm around him.

This help me, it help me forget that I will be moving away. I will being marrying Iwan for my safety. Am I to young to get married? I am barely about to be eighteen. Will I get to finish college?

I feel Jason kiss me on my cheek. Not just once but multiple times. I feel his lip depart from my cheek than to my neck. I could feel his wet tongue suck on my skin. I feel my beat began to quicken.

What is he doing?

"J-Jason what are you d-doing. I'm your sister-" I push him away from me. My stomach began to feel uneasy.

"No you're not Maya."He pushes me and stands up. He runs his hands through his hair. I could see he was angry.

"You are not my sister! I am not your brother! We don't have the same fucking blood!"

I sit up from my bed and look at him.

"What are you talki-"

"I'm saying that we are not related! This is all a lie. Maya I have the right to kiss you because I love you. Ever since I started to have feelings for you I just wanted to be with you! You to become mine." He runs his hands through his hair and let's out a frustrated groan.

"Now my mom is letting you leave with someone that could hurt you. FUCK!!!!!" He throws all my things from my desk to the floor.

"Jason please calm down." I rush to him before he breaks anything else. I grab both his cheeks making him look at me. "You're scaring me."

"Maya I'm so sorry." He hugs me and I really felt bad for him. I hate seeing people sad.

Because it makes us sad.

I rub his back trying to comfort him which works.

"You are my weakness Maya. I would do anything for you. Anything." He looks down at me, his eyes red. "I love you Maya. I truly do."

And thats when it happen. I don't know why my body reacted to him. It was like I didn't have control.

Jason kissed me.

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