I wake up with my favorite song blaring.-The Drug in Me is You by Falling in Reverse- I smack my alarm shutting it off as I get up. My feet hit the frozen floorboards of my room.I grumble turning on my stereo letting the loud music fill the room.You'd think since it's five in the morning I'd be getting yelled at but nobody is here other than me;like always. I slump off my pajamas and walk into the bathroom. I hit a button and warm water streams down my back jolting me awake.I finish stepping out. My music playing-Good girls Bad guys by Falling in Reverse-I look in the mirror at my scarred up self. My bleach blonde hair wet and sticking to my body. My almost white skin with light pink lines of past pain.I grab a pair of ripped skinny jeans and an old Black Veil Brides tank top. Slipping them on I try to ignore the pain. I have so much stuff yet I'm still unhappy. I wish my parents wouldn't buy me things... I wish they were around more. I put on my dark black eyeliner and some mascara. Blinking a few times I whisper "This is good as it's gonna get." grabbing my skateboard and my tattered bag along with my guitar and head for school.
The sound of my guitar fills the emptiness of the frigid morning air as I strum each string. I feel it come alive as I sit in front of Mountain Range High School , waiting for the band teacher to come unlock the doors. I close my eyes feeling the chords take form on the neck. The metal strings pressing hard against my fingertips. A song I've almost completed starts in my head. My heart takes control as I play. I'm interrupted by the sound of clapping. Cautiously opening my eyes I see the band teacher and sigh.
" You're late Mr. Luna. I could have missed my morning practice." I smile, standing and slinging my guitar over my shoulder as it fits perfectly to my back.
" I still don't understand why you refuse to play when I have students in the classroom Rosie." He pulls out his keys and I grab my backpack.
" I promised you I'd play for your talent show. I'll even play my new song if it pleases you." I giggle darting to the classroom. I spend most of my free time in here it's my favorite place. I set my worn out, patched up, leather bag down grabbing a music stand and chair. Gently placing my guitar in my lap as I sit down. I strum the strings and it comes alive once again.
" Mr. Luna?" His voice feels like satin on my skin. His tall figure stands in the door looking right past me to the music teacher. His eyes are mesmerizing with colors of emeralds, blues as deep as the ocean,grays as dark as storm clouds on the rise and sparks of gold like stars. Jack Amber, lead guitarist and singer of the best band in the school. I've had a crush on him since 9th grade. Pathetic, I know, considering he is a junior and I'm a sophmore now.
"Yes, Jack?" Mr. Luna breaks me out of my daze. I blush and look down searching for my song book in a fluster.Jack walks over to Mr. Luna and they begin talking about the talent show. I play with my strings not sure if I should play with him in the room. I look at the lyrics in my book for awhile; I haven't been able to come up with more than the chorus and part of the verse for awhile. I begin to play messing with new chords and sounds.
Will two hearts, beat in time?
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender.
Chasing love that can never be mine.
Maybe one day you'll realize.
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender
I keep thinking about Jack more than I usually do. The day goes by in a blur until I get to my off hour.
I race to the band room new lyrics playing in my head. I pick up my guitar in a rush and start playing chords at random until I find the right ones.
