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Chapter 27

Chapter 27

A few days has passed since the argument I had with Matt and the small talk I had with Adam. "Honey you can't stay in your room all day!" my mom shouted from outside of my room door, "watch me mom!" I got up and opened my door, "mom look I'm not in the best mood and I honestly don't want to be bothered. I know you mean well but please just let me treat myself to a nice break." I said laying my head on the door. "Okay, I'll be here when you're ready to live life again!" she yelled walking away from my door, I gave out a small giggle "love you mom!" I shouted shutting the door. I turned back around heading towards the end of my bed and just lay back thinking what I should do about what had happened this past week. "Damn I'm a mess." I said facing the ceiling, "what is wrong with me?" I muttered. I closed my eyes just thinking about life and Brennen and remembering the last day with him.

"Babe!" I shouted from the upstairs bathroom doing my hair which is was a few doors down from Brennen's room, "yes!" he responded. "How's the weather today? I need to know!" I set down my straight iron, turned it off, and added some serum to keep my hair looking healthy. I headed towards Brennens room with a white t-shirt and some Star Wars shorts of his."Mm it says it's supposed to rain today?" he said in a questionable tone, "well did you still want to go to the beach?" I asked. "Sure, a little rain isn't going to stop us have a little fun baby." He said crawling off the bed to get to me grabbing my face and gently kissing my lips. Kissing Brennen made me feel like Katy Perry in her music video, Firework yeah I know weird analogy but yo its true. I smiled through our kiss, "I love you." "I love you too baby." He responded. "Ok babe I have to get ready and so do you." I said during our kiss. His lips parted from mine and he gave me a peck on the cheek and nodded, "alright babe." Brennen made me feel special, he makes me feel like I mean something and I'm important. Matt never made me feel special or important but that shouldn't matter anymore, I'm with Brennen and the way he makes me feel is the only thing that matters. Soon after we both got done getting ready we headed out the door and got into the car, "you're driving!" I shouted as I got into his truck. I saw him give out a smile laugh when he got in he started the car and he handed me the aux, "aye party!" I said grabbing it. I plugged it in and chose the Shawn Mendes station on Pandora.

"I'm taking the usual route because the flowers look a-mazin-g when it's raining." He said I gave out a small giggle and nodded, "alright babe." As we approached the turn to get into that road it started raining really hard and the road began very slippery, "Babe be careful." I said he grabbed my hand and kiss the front of it and we swerved a little, "Brennen!" I shouted. "Babe calm down!" I took a deep breath, "I'm sorry I just want you to drive carefully."When he turned to look at me he said, "Babe I know," he took small glances to check the road, "I know-" "Brennen!" I yelled, "A car! Stop the-"

We turned and hit the other car causing a huge impact on our car and bodies. I woke up hearing a loud sound of ambulance and people asking me questions and checking my head for any bad injuries. I laid on the wet floor on the side of the road while Brennen laid on the opposite side of the truck so I couldn't see if he was ok or not. "Ma'm what's your name?" "wha-what?" I said in a low confused tone, "How old are you?" I kept getting basic questions, "whe-wher-where's Brennen?" I was pick up and put on a gurney I picked up my head looking for Brennen but I couldn't see anything due to the amount of blurriness to my sight. "Brennen," I muttered. My eyes started to close and I could hear voices talking about the accident. "The truck was wrecked! It wasn't the best sight!" one worker said. "I know! Man the guy was hurt pretty badly." I started to worry listening to all of this talk about the accident and wondering if Brennen is ok or not? How would I go on knowing the love of my life is gone? I need to stay positive I can't think like this. He's going to be fine."We got to the hospital and I was rolled into the ER as I was being rolled I could hear louder voices across the aisle, "Injuries to the head, broken rib and internal bleeding. Roll him to the ER now!" I felt emptiness in my heart as if something just left and gone just like that. A tear rolled down my face knowing Brennen isn't ok and I won't be with him. My vision started to get more blurry an I started to become light headed. The words, "Ma'm are you ok?" started fading away and soon I had no senses. I couldn't hear, touch, see, talk, or anything. It's like I was completely gone. I needed to know if Brennen was ok or not. I couldn't live knowing I survived while he died. I would cry all day and night I wouldn't be able to handle that much pressure. I would think it's my fault for distracting him, if I hadn't said anything this wouldn't have happened. If I would've just kept my mouth shut we wouldn't be here laying in a hospital bed being treated.