You're sitting down writing about how you feel of how fucked up your world is, your hands are numb ad sweaty, your heart and mind are in sync, and while you're writing this words you cant get anything right. Is their really a light at the end of everything right now at this moment their is nothing that can show me the light.
When you die people say to never follow the light but what if the light is the right place to go to; what if what's behind the light is not a world of pain. The light most be the point where everything stops and nothing hurts anymore. All those wounds that are always making you hurt and you try to cover them up with a big smile cant hurt anymore. Words and thoughts can not destroy you at that point its just all over.
Humans are afraid of the dark and I'm not any exception. I fear both the light and the dark,- the day light brings terror to my world it feels as everyone around me are hungry wolfs who feed out of my energy. They leach to my happiness and smile as if they where young wolfs feeding from there mother. While i feel protective to listen to their pain. My universe turns into nothing but darkness real quick; but none of them know this not even one realizes how screwed up my world is. I'm comfortable sitting in the dark outside or inside nothing really scares me in the dark. Possible yes ghost might be real and they're blending into our world without us knowing. Chills run down my spine while i get really alert, yes I might get afraid of them but I myself am a ghost walking this earth between half leaving and half dead people. Once I close my eyes nothing can harm me, i enjoy been in that darkness because i create what i want. I'm not afraid to be there all by myself at the end i know you start with everything but at the end you end up with nothing.
Where do i find this famous light everyone talks about? Where can i get it from? Why cant i just have it now? At this point in my journey i thing everything that ever brought a light to me has banished. My paintings dont show happiness, my words arent as strong, and my life has no light. Its possible that i have reach the end, the light will someday show up and all of this will go away.
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She dissapear
RandomOne day she was there joking, smiling, and worrying about everyone. The she slowly stopped replying everyones messages and calls, it seemed as if the earth ate her a live thats impossible. I tried visiting her but she never came to the door. Her ne...
