If you could read my mind
I promise you'd be in tears.
I've tried and tried and tried
To rid myself of fears.
But the people keep on taunting
I sink more into despair
They're voices are so haunting
Why do none of them care?
I just need someone to speak out
Or feel some sort of regret
Instead you all just shout
Wishing i'd take my last breath.
My parents are confused
Unaware of my depression..
The smile that I used
Didn't need a therapy session.
That smile I displayed,
For my teachers and at home
Was so completely fake
I was utterly alone.
It became easy to lie
The more people asked
Easier to fake smile
Easier to fake laugh.
My peers could work quietly
No worries on their minds..
None of them could even see
That I was more than shy.
I was done fighting
An endless war
I started writing..
Decided I was sure;
For whom it may concern:
Tonight I'm going to leave
But please, do not worry.
Please do not see me
And be filled with sadness and fury.
I'm going somewhere better
Where I no longer feel this way
I am simply writing this letter
To tell why I can't stay.
It started with one joke
One persons careless laugh
Slowly my heart broke
On all of their behalf.
Soon every day I cried
My heart began to ache
I started having to lie
A smile, and head shake.
Suicide crossed my mind
Almost every day.
All of you were blind
As my heart slowly decayed.
Now I've lost all of my hope
My heart cannot be fixed
So tonight I tie this rope
Knowing I won't be missed.
As the people who hurt me read this
Please..hear my plead.
Do not ever persist
Another girl like me.
I hope you learn from this
And also realize how
To stop and think or resist.
Because your 'jokes' aren't funny now.
