I listen to you say things
you probably don't even mean
though
now
I'm not so sure
anymore
"Louis
I'm so sorry
Louis
I know you will never forgive me
I don't expect you to
I feel terrible
Lou"
"Louis
help me forgive myself
I don't think I can
I don't think I will
I don't think I'm allowed to
Lou"
"Louis
I can't even look at myself
in the mirror anymore
I'm so scared
I'll meet the monster
inside of me
Lou"
"Louis
help me
that monster
that monster isn't me
I'm terrified
please
believe me
that monster isn't me
Lou."
"Louis
remember that night
when we stayed awake till three
because I had a nightmare
that I'll do something unforgivable
and you helped calm me down
you talked to me
told me you'd forgive me
because you loved me?
Lou"
"Louis
I'm so sorry
that
that nightmare became
a reality"
"Louis
wake up
please
I want you to tell me
how much you hate me
Lou"
"Louis
wake up and tell me
you hate me
that you want me dead
that you want me in your place
you don't deserve this
I do
Lou"
"Louis
please
please
please
wake up
I cannot take
this silence anymore
it hurts me
it kills me
Lou"
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FanficI'll listen to your cries I'll listen to your sobs I'll listen to your screams and the silence that holds a million words.
