Internal Conflict.

Chapter 15

"Mum, I'm going to visit Rose." I informed mum while walking down the stairs, zipping up my jacket.

the conversation with Liam last night left me super curious, never have I ever been this curious in my goddamn life and I don't know why and I don't like it.

maybe because its about Niall? Maybe.

"need a drive?" mum looked at me and the papers thrown in front of her with glasses hanging low on the bridge of her nose, Adorable.

"Nah, I can handle it." I said while wearing my white beanie. I walked out of the house and I took a glance at the Malik's house but there was nothing interesting.

Chace's car isn't parked so you have to walk, Alone?

yes alone shut the hell up.

but you've been a victim of an abduction and you know that, there are scars.

I held my head between my hands trying to block all these negative thoughts and ugly voices out of my head and I succeeded.

I started walking again in the empty street while singing a happy song inside of my head to keep my mind busy

I'm good, I'm good, I'm good, I'm good
Living life just like I should
wouldn't change it if I could
I'm good, I'm good, I'm good

Lies, they are all lies

tryina figure out who I am, or who I'm supposed to be
feeling good about where I stand
so I can make the most of me, I'm
I'm coming down from space
a million miles away
there's a lot of love in this place
and I'm just tryna say I'm good

Definitely Lies.

I started singing out loud to block these internal negative voices and few minutes later I'm knocking on Rose's front door

"hey there." I said the minute Rose opened the door and I pushed her and stepped in

"hey yourself." she greeted me with a nod and smile and walked in front of me to the stairs toward her room.

"you're alone? "

"yes I am." she replied without turning to me.

8:12pm

Rose and I spent the day listening to One Direction's songs, I genuinely have a headache because of the music I have heard today trying to find the lost quotes, in every song I listen to, I pour all of my concentration on the lyrics to find just one quote I have heard before but there wasn't any except for one.

right now, i wish you were here with me.

I used to say this quote and I still say it when I miss dad but I don't think this have got anything to do with me because everybody can use this in a romantic or sad song.

I threw the headphones on the bed frustrated "This is tiring!" I complained while rubbing my eyes with my knuckles

"Aren't you enjoying the songs?!" Rose asked and her tone closer to surprise than a normal question
"I do, but I have a massive headache,Rose, we have been listening to their music since afternoon, fuck it they are four goddamn albums!" I threw my hands in the air and my voice changed from calm to frustrated in less than 20 seconds.

And ofcourse Rose laughed and unfolded her legs from beneath her to stretch them in front of her on the bed, "C'mon gurl, you can't deny that you admire how grown up they are now, their voices are much more raspier ! Especially Harry!"