That moment you realize that a broken heart has changed your life forever. A line from Paul Hudson's "The Best Part of your Life is Realizing Why it's Better That Things didn't Work Out" in Elite Daily.
Over four years ago I fell in love at a wrong time for the wrong person. To cut to the chase, I got my heart broken as hell.
I stopped going to sunday schools, skipped classes, I dropped and failed some subjects. I started to sport a boy hair cut. I was miserable. The young me took time before she learned her lesson. The time frame for coping with stress was longer than I was in the relationship.
A year after our break up, I haven't moved on yet. My brother tried to help me and send me abroad with him. I thought being away for couple of months would help. I was actually just running away from it. I was too woebegone, I thought that I was too much too much handle for my family. So I left home. It was one of the toughest decision I've made.
Life outside home was obviously hard. Of course I had to earn to sustain my needs. I applied in a call center. I pay my share for rent, electricity, water and aside from that I also have to buy stuffs for my apartment. At first it was fulfilling and then I felt alone. But that's just fine, I think I'm stronger now.
I go on casual dates and pursue no one. Someone has been persistent and consistent for sometime, so I gave it shot, he then confided that I was daring spontaneous and that I no longer want relationships. For the first time in forever, the inner goddess has woken up (totally fetch from the grey book haha)
That didn't last tho. When I decided to go back home we also cut it off. But unlike the previous one, I no longer take breakups in a negative way. Instead I indulged my self in my craft. I was able to go back to school and focus. I took life more seriously. I was learning... I was changing. I was happy.
So, why am I suddenly talking about this shit anyway?
OK... I bumped into her just a few days back. Everything flashed-back before my very eyes , all the heart breaks, all the things I've gone through after. It was very unexpected that it took awhile before I say my first words. We had a small chat. I'm surprised, we are actually happy to see each other once again. We are are now both happy, crazy in love with someone else. But what I wasn't able to tell to this person is how grateful I am. This person triggered me to make the biggest and most drastic change in my life.
I realized some things are meant to happen so it can lead you to something better. Ergo, it was necessary for me to fall in love and get my heart broken with the wrong person so it can lead me to the right one. After four years, I'm finally with the right person at a right time.
