✖️ To Forgive and Forget [ MARTIN GARRIX ] [ COMPLETED ] ✖️

✖️ Chapter Fourteen: Past ✖️

Lukewarm water lapped against my ankles, making them numb the longer I let my feet soak in the pool. Sun shined in through the windows and skylight, but none of the rays could reach me as I sat as far as I could in the shadows. I watched a ripple affect happened as tears fell from the tip of my nose and washed away my makeup.

I couldn't hold it back anymore. All the resentment I have held inside of me and pushed back to make other people around me happy. It made me hate myself, though. I have always tried to make Martin happy and please him as much as I could without hurting him, but that didn't seem to work. Letting Julian talk, play around, and mess with my feelings as much as he wanted and not getting upset with him. I'm tired of it all. People can not use me anymore like they have been for years.

Taking my feet out of the pool and standing up, I stared at my reflection on the surface of the water. I will no longer be a puppet, used, or taken advantage of by the ones I thought cared for me. Martin will no longer control me and Julian will stop laughing at my mistakes. I will forget about them and think for myself and show them that I'm not taking there taunts and attitudes.

"Rain?!" I heard the distant sound of Julian's voice as he searched for me in the hotel. Rubbing the makeup away from under my eyes with my jacket sleeve, I walked over to the stained glass door and opened it slowly. "Rain? Oh, thank God, you're okay." He said as he as reached me from is position at the end of the hallway.

"Yeah, I'm fine," I replied with a hint of anger and hoping to end our conversation soon. "Are the others upstairs?" Julian shrugged his shoulders and gave me a goofy grin that usually makes me smile from ear to ear. I brushed my hair away from my face and stared at Julian for him to give me a proper answer.

"I left before anyone did, but I think Jared and Ben went out to look for you in town. Martin might still be up in the room if you want to go and apologize to him," I gritted my teeth hard so I wouldn't retort back harshly and stuffed my hands into my pockets. Julian grabbed my arm and pulled me close to whisper in my ear, but I spoke before he could.

"Let go," I stressed out from between my lips as he just smirked at me. "Julian, what did you say to Martin?" I know he must have spoken to him before going to search for me and I could only guess that he was telling lies to Martin about me. I pulled my arm out of his hand and marched my way down the corridor.

"I know you've changed, Rain," he called after me. My skin chilled and reached my bones as I stopped at the end of the hallway. "I rather like it myself." Julian said as he walked slowly towards me making each step longer than the last so I could hang on every word he spoke.

When he finally stood in front of me, I almost wanted to hit him, or cry into his chest, or kiss him. My feelings were a mess at this point and Julian wasn't making them any better by teasing me. Julian reached out to brush a stray strand of hair behind my ear and touched his fingertips to my tender and cool skin.

"You don't know anything about me, Julian. I don't even know why I ever became friends with you because all you do is want to mess with me and tease me. You're nothing but a asshole." I spoke softly as Julian removed his hand and stepped back.

"We all have our animal, don't we?"