I think I've lost myself in the pursuit to find crazy reckless love. My numb body can still fell the pain after being hurt time and time again. Beating me with your last dying breath continually wont take the pain away. I'll always have the scars that pains my memory to think about, and always have the heart that you once held with a happiness. The movement of love collapses harshly on top of me, leaving my body weak and frail. I'm tired of the kisses in between the love that only captivates my heart for a second and I tired of the way he holds me to come so familiar with my body that all I can do is crave his every touch just wanting to be held with pride, but then his shadow comes over me and all Im left with is the impression that he once loved me, but now has grown tired of my ways. Long sleeves will hide the pain I've brought to the surface of my body. Every slit reminds me of the days where our love was innocent and our hearts tiptoed to each others and they did the dance that inflamed my body every time I heard the slightest bit of your name. The blood draws away from my body just as you did and I'm only to blame. I've given up on trying to understand the way love works. It only seem that true beauty draws hearts close, but if that is true I have to ask the question of why can't I enjoy the simple pleasures of love? Maybe it's I'm below the standards that love sets. I just want someone to make every pimple on my skin look like diamonds and every pound a block of pure gold. So as the eyelashes fall onto the bed where Im cold and alone I make a wish that someone...anyone could come and understand my scars that mold me and we can feel the pain together,but those are only silly wishes they could never come true so as I lay in this empty bed thinking back to all the moments you and I were young and forever wild and in love I can't fight back the tears that flow effortlessly down the side of my cheek I don't have to pretend and hide behind the chains that lock me into my own body I let the feelings breathe out the lies that contain me. I slowly fall deep into a reality that never fails to amaze my eyes, because its so easy to fall in love in my head. Then I'm forced to awaken and walk with the sound of chains dragging behind me.
