Last First Year

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A/N emotional chapter

My hair is sticking everywhere. My makeup smeared, mascara running down my cheeks, no one wiping them away. I silently let tears fall from my eyes, Snuggling closer to my pillow.

The room is pitch black, the curtains drawn, and door locked. I feel alone. The girls left to go to Taco Bell with the boys but all I can do is think.
A million what ifs
Run through my head.
A million mistakes
Run through my head.

I cannot believe I fell for him.

In the short amount of time of living and breathing here I managed to fall for the boy with blue eyes. In the short time knowing that boy, he managed to break my heart.

It's like your soul shatters.
Darkness surrounding you,
No one there
To lead you back to light.
As if your drowning,
And no one can hear or see
You struggle.

No one cares anymore, not one person has checked on me. Not that I want them to.

The only person I need here is Sierra.
She always knew what to do to make me smile again, but she has forgotten me. Erased me from her life. And her contacts.

I want my sister back.
The sweet protective sister. I want her to remember me, and remember that I'm younger and I need my big sister.

"Cameron!" I hear a voice yell. My parents must be back. Dad and mum Speak quietly.

No one answers her. I hear the dialling sound of her phone. She speaks into it.

"Hi Hun, how are you?" She says to Cameron.
On the other end Cameron must reply.

"That's good. I love you. Bye" She sighs.

I hear her hang up. I wait, curled up into a ball, waiting for her to check on me, call me, do anything but they don't.

The door shuts.

They left me. Without realising I'm here. They forgot about me to.

I'm done with this.

I leap out of bed and jump into the shower, washing myself and hair. When I get out I lightly apply makeup to lighten up my face. I change into a new pair of sweats and a 'Cameron Dallas is my brother' hoody, but I try and fade the writing.
He doesn't want to be my brother.

I grab a duffle bag and a few outfits, my makeup and toiletries.

I slide the bag over my shoulder and unlock my door.

I make my way down the stairs and to the kitchen. I take a pen and piece of paper and write, pouring out all my feelings.

Dear mum, dad, Cameron and and my princess- Maddie.
Dont worry about me. I've gone to visit Sierra for a couple days. I want my sister back. I left because of Cameron, Hayes and you guys. Mum and Dad, you came home, rang Cameron, asked how he was, then left. You didn't call me to make sure IM OKAY , you didn't even notice I was home. You left. It's obvious that everyone's forgetting me. Cameron- you don't even want me as a sister, I know that. You don't have to pretend to believe in me. I know the truth. You kept a big part of your life a secret. I told you EVERYTHING, I trusted you enough to put my life in your hands, but that's long gone. I love you all so much x I hope you know that. Don't worry I'll be back.
Love Willow Jayde Dallas

Tears stream down my face As I place the note on the island bench.

I grab my penny board, my secret stash of money and my phone and charger.

I open the front door and look around as memories flood back through my mind.

I step through the door and immediately the smell of fresh air hits me.

I hop on my penny board and skate towards sierras new house that is 30 mins away.

*at sierras*

I take a deep breath in. Here goes nothing.

I knock on the front door, my cheeks wet with fresh tears.

The door opens revealing a very surprised Sierra.

Her eyes fill with tears. As she takes in my appearance.
"Willow..." She stutters...

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I cried writing this. This is so emotional.
But on a higher not...
She's trying to fix things with Sierra!!!!!
I'm sorry for not updating in ages😬 but look for more.

Comment if you cried. I did.

-KB