you lay down on the ground and think about every guy you talked to its like climbing a mountain and when you get to the top of that mountain you think there perfect for me they were made for me we were made to meet each ther we have great convos and he is super sweet….thats what you think next thing you know your talking then all the sudden *push* down you go you never excited to them (YOUR NOTHING) never texts you again ignores you never calls you again its like they died but there still alive and they forget about you but you can't ever forget about them cause there that mountain you wanted to climb and once you did you got to the top and feel happy that you did it but no it was a cliff and you fall or (fail) your name means nothing to them and your just a piece of dust in the past under the bed never to be found…. you just want to find a mountain that has no ending and never gets bored of you climbing it and you never get bored of the never ending mountain because its your dream to maybe reach the top so you keep going and wanting to be there one and only climber
but life doesn't want you to find that so easy you have to train your ass off and fail so many times until you do find that one and only and then you get happy….. yes i do believe that every guy/mountain you talk/climb to does want you to think there the one but end up to not be and fools you tricks you to the top just so they can push you off. push you off so you fall and fall hard and have to start again and again and again. you think your used to the pain but no your in the air and you feel fine while once you land it all hits you and *BOOM* pain anger sadness all together as that mountain you just had all this courage to climb is gone…. disappeared vanished never to re turn again. and if it does return you know better and just stay nice.
you think you would stop after all this falling but no i can't stop i need that feeling off being loved or even liked or someone to call me beautiful or sweet or even babe or someone to have a nice convo with. i fall and again just go straight to another mountain thinking "THIS ONE IS DIFFERENT" when no its all the same… nothing changed maybe one person would be nice but my requirements are too high and only a super star fits them…i need to change my self before i can expect anyone else to change.
