They say if you let it go and it leaves you, it wasn't meant to be.
They say that you cant love somebody if you don't love yourself first.
But its all bull shit.
I have never loved myself.
But I love her so much.
She was my best friend,
We where like sisters.
But then he came along.
He made her so happy.
He made her smile more then I ever could.
But for what price?
I lost my best friend during the time I needed her most.
When my life had gone to total shit,
She wasn't there.
She said she would be,
But she wasn't.
We have grown apart.
But then someone made them split,
A heart torn in two,
She was devastated,
She cried.
She knew that I would always be there for her to cry to.
To rant to,
I was always ready to be there for her.
But she just pushed me away.
I was there for her.
But was she there for me?
She wasn't.
Shes been so mad lately.
She has been different.
She yells at me for trying to help her.
I die a little when ever I wave to her in the hallway,
Yet she doesn't wave back.
She says she will always be there for me,
But she never is.
I wish we could go back to the times where we where close,
When we could talk to each other about anything.
When we could have a conversation with just our eyes and no words where needed.
But we cant anymore,
We've grown apart.
I try to be nonchalant about it.
Too mask the pain with a simple smile,
Thinking I can hide from the pain with a smile, laugh, and a simple "Oh well"
It worked for a while.
But I don't think I can take it anymore.
What did I do to make you not want to wave back?
What did I do to make us grow so far apart?
Please let me know.
Because its killing me,
I am here.
No matter if we grow apart,
Or if we reconnect.
But please tell me,
Why did this happen?
