Bucky x Reader Don't cry

Please Don't cry

"Oh shut up (Y/n)!" Bucky said, not yelled, but loudly. "It'true! You don't take our relationship seriously!" You yelled. Bucky has been distant to you for the past few weeks and barely talked to you.  "I do but it's just that maybe you are too clingy! " Your eyebrow twitched. It was rare that you and your boyfriend had a fight, and it never had been so bad. "I am not clingy! I just tried to make have conversation with you but you kept ignoring me like a...a...machine! " That kinda struck one of Bucky's nerves. "Have it your way (Y/n). Goodbye." With that he jumped out the window. It didn't worry you, it surprised you. I mean he was an Russian assassin for crying out loud. He could easily survive a jump from the... 5th floor of your apartment house. But still...you wondered why bucky would do that.

Time skip to night and your pov

What did he mean with goodbye? Is he leaving forever? Or just to let off some steam? Why would he do that? Did you do something wrong? Suddenly all the thoughts of me having done something so wrong that he left, washed over me and I got incredible self confident. Was I not pretty enough? Did the word machine hurt him that much? Did he not want such a annoying girlfriend? Was I really too clingy? Is that the reason he left? Did he actually left me?

Normal pov

All the thoughts were in your head and you were on the verge of crying. But no. You'd never let yourself cry. You were a trained shield agent, and a tough girl on the outside. You refused to cry. You wrapped yourself in the blankets, regretting calling bucky a machine, and worried yourself to sleep. Little did you know that a certain assassin was up in the vents, also regretting, and watching you sleep, wishing he was next to you. He thought you hated him because of the fight and it seemed pretty much like it. You didn't even shed one single tear while bucky silently loosed a few, thinking he lost you forever.

Time skip two days

You were freaking out. Bucky didn't show up. Not a single time. Not to get his stuff, nor to apologise, nor to tell you he hated you, nothing. It hurt you so much to think about him, that you tried to ignore it and even skip work, but nothing helped. You didn't even want to eat, because every time you did it reminded you of the dinners with bucky. You missed him terribly. But you still didn't dare to cry. That wouldn't make things better.
Now the Russian assassin was watching you from a silent corner, slowly loosing it. He thought you had already moved on and forgot about him, but he simply couldn't. He wanted to apologise but he didn't know how. He was kinda trapped.

Time skip one week

That was it. You couldn't take it anymore. You missed bucky terribly, but you knew you could never find him. He was a master in hiding after all. You stood by the kitchen counter, looking at a picture of you and bucky. It was tearing you apart. You really wanted to hold back the tears but you couldn't.

You punched the picture to the ground, not caring that it shattered. You ran to your bedroom and locked the door, even thouh you were alone. You stood in the middle of the room, waiting for your breakdown to come.

Bucky's pov

I was truly depressed. It seemed that she had completely forgotten about me and moved on without even trying to find me. Yet I still couldn't get over it. It made me mad not to be able to crawl next to her at night and hug her...yet it was my fault. Today was different though.

I was hiding in the vents of the kitchen, looking down at her dreamily, until she yelled and punched our photograph. It shattered on the ground, so did my heart. She angrily took off to the bedroom and locked it, so I crawled to the vents in the bedroom and watched her with horrified eyes.
(Y/n) Fell to her knees and took her head in her hands. Then she started to shake. Oh no.

No one's pov
(Y/n) silently started to sob. It has been ages since she last cried, and she didn't hold back anymore. Slowly, rivers of tears streamed from her eyes and she began to sob heavily. She wailed and screamed, not caring if anyone heard her.

Bucky's pov again :)

I watched in shock. This is the first time I saw her cry. She never cried. I thought about giving up and hugging the live out of her, but she'd probably push me away and say she hated me but before I could continue to think, she screamed something that shocked me to the bone.

"B-Bucky I'm s-sorry please don't leave..." She sobbed. That was the last straw. I kicked the vent open and immediately wrapped my arms around her.

(Y/n)'s pov

After I said those words and sobbed again, I felt arms wrap around me. It didn't even took a second for me to recognise them because one was rough and warm, the other was cold and hard. I hugged back instantly, not even asking where the hell he came from. I sobbed into his shoulder, burying my face in his neck.
"B-b-b-buck-ck-ck-y-y..."I tried to make a sentence but failed miserably. "Shhhh (Y/n)... I can not describe how sorry I am...I don't deserve you... I was wrong... The reason I ignored you was just that I don't know how to deal with relationships and I forgot about your feelings... I don't deserve your tears, so please don't cry." Bucky used his flesh hand to wipe my tears away then tilted my chin up. "Will you ever forgive me?" He said before slowly brushing his lips against mine. Oh how much I missed them! I kissed back with all of my love and wrapped my arms around his neck. He placed a hand on my waist and the other was still on my chin. We both smiled into the kiss and stopped for air. "O-only when you promise not to leave me alone for this long ever again!" I giggled. He chuckled. "As long as you promise to never cry again." "As long as you don't leave me!" Bucky leaned his forehead against yours. "I'd never...I'll stay with you till the end of the line." You laughed and giggled as he picked you up and put you in the bed, laying next to you. "C'mon that's your and Steve's line!" You grinned. "Yeah but I still mean it." He put a strand of your hair behind your ear and kissed your forehead. "I love you." He said. "I love you too Bucky." You smiled and leaned against his chest, falling asleep a few moments later.

The End :)