The One

He is

I never thought of him as my Mr. Right, nor would I ever fall for him. He is not my first but he is making me feel like he is. It is not that I am comparing, it is just that all I am feeling now feels so different than my previous relationships.

We met during my first year in college, through your cousin, and I was still dating somebody else then. I cannot say that we became friends, maybe acquaintance is a better term for it. You were just a random person for me then, so I forgot all about you despite hearing news of you after that during my 1st year to 2nd year in college. Like who you like, who you are courting, how your courting is going on, how hurt you have been from being turned down and etc. I never really cared. I just know you by name, I just know you as my friend's cousin so those news never mattered to me. But I did get a positive view on you for doing your research alone in Filipino despite it ending up pretty funny. So to sum it up, until 2nd year, I see you as a hard-working person who ends up being hurt always. Kind of not a good first impression I guess. Oh, but you did become my former boyfriend's teammate during second year so I did see you often then. I even have two photos where you are there but that did not give you any importance to my life then.

During 3rd year, by God's will I guess, we became classmates. I saw you then as my friend's ex who was badly hurt because that friend may be a good friend but a bitch in romance. I am broken then too though, but not because of your former teammate. We became friends, for me that is, since we became hematology lab partners. I forgot everything I thought of you before as we got closer. You do not look hurt at all then. I was even amazed on how positive you look in my eyes. You shined as I get to know you. I suddenly remember one day all the things I kept on hearing about you in the past and made me wonder why would people even hurt you. You are one of the nicest people I have ever met. You may like to make fun of people but you are one of the genuine friend one can ever have. Or maybe I thought of that because I was starting to like you then which only my two closest friends noticed first. But I wasn't too dense I guess because I noticed I was being too biased already like on your haircut when we started practicing for the pageant we were forced into. I then confirmed on our photo shoot as you hugged me from my back and our faces were leaning closer and closer as we stare to one another. You aren't a nobody anymore in my life. You started to be someone really important for me without us noticing it. Before I knew it, you already entered my heart.

We started chatting more then texting even after I confessed to you. I had to I guess because I cannot contain it anymore. I never want to have regrets and it is good that I did that. That gave way for you to be interested on what I have to say that we even talked to school privately, though you did say then that you don't like me and I can only be your friend. I was hurt but I fell too deep already to just give up. I started to love you despite everything started from mere human curiosity. I just had to stay beside you even as a friend because that is way better than nothing. And I am glad I stayed. Slowly, you opened your heart to me. I do not know why either but I am happy that you did.

No one expected anything when we met but a chapter in our lives ended after three years, he and I then started a new one together this year. I can repeat telling the story of how we started over and over and over again to anybody. He is worth everything I can and have. I am and always will be proud that I loved him first because he definitely deserves it. He is a blessing in my life I should never take for granted.

To the man I love, thank you.