Don't leave...We need you (5SOS Ashton Irwin) *COMPLETED, EDITING*

19: Ollie

19: Ollie

*Ashtons POV*

I crash through the hospital doors and sprint down the corridor, turning quite a few heads. I don't even ask the nurse if I can enter Leo's room before doing so. I stop dead in my tracks. She's not here. I give the sleeping Leo a frantic look.

I exit the room and nearly run into a nurse in my hurry.

"I'm so sorry!" I quickly apologise. "Have you by any chance seen a girl, her name is Becca shes about 5'7 with blonde hair?"

The nurse shakes her head "I'm sorry, I have only just come on duty" I sink to my knees my face crumpling up, but no tears being released.

I don't say a word. The nurse apologises again before rushing off continuing with her job, her life. That's just the thing though. Everyone else moves by around me, continuing their lives, not knowing the hardships of my gi - friends life nor mine. They don't know what has happened, they don't care because they don't me, they don't know the beautiful Becca. I do, but I don't know where she is.

What should I do? That is the vital question. Even if Becca was here shes not anymore, shes someplace else, someplace I have to find.

*Beccas POV*

My first thoughts are to go and see Leo. But no. Why should I. I will just feel so much worse and he's sleeping, because he's hurt and that was my fault. He doesn't deserve to see my dirty face. I need to go someplace else. I head to where I have never been before, where I know he is because Mum told me. Harlgrove cemetery.

Yes it's in Sydney, Australia. Yes I'm in - wherever this is but at the end of the day my home is in Australia and no one wants me here, not that anyones waiting for me in Australia.

All I deserve is to go and say sorry. To the man who I have despiced for so many years. Who the man was so wrong but was so right about one thing - me.

I didn't deserve to be born. I didn't deserve to have such a loving Mum and a loving Brother. I didn't deserve life itself.

I was going to visit my Dad. Afterall he can't hurt me anymore he is dead in a grave. Did I not tell you he hurt me? Well yeah I lied...a lot. I never told Ashton everything, I never will not after -.

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Sitting in this airport it makes me realise something. The amount of times I was told I was worth so much by my Mum, I was told I was worth nothing so many more times by my Dad. I have realised that not only I lie, others do too. I believed Mum, but no longer. Good people are bad people too but bad people are never good. The way life lies, it just isn't for everyone, only few have everything the way they want but the people who have the worst things must have them for a reason mustn't they? I just don't get it. I can accept I'm a bad person but how? Why?

That is one question I will find the answer too if it's the last thing I do and one things for sure, I want it to be the last thing I do.

"Would flight 44382 board now please." I stand up, and walk to the woman standing by the gates, I hand her my ticket.

She frowns at me but asks no questions. Well it's going to look weird isn't it? A girl with make up running down her face flying to Australia with no luggage whatsoever not even a handbag. I don't care though, I always stand out from the rest, I always have, not that I like it.

I get onto the plane and am seated next to a little boy. An air hostess comes over to me.

"Hello! This is Ollie, he is flying to Australia to live with his grandparents after something - unexpected happened to his Mum and Dad-" At this the little boy who must be about 10 bursts into tears. The air hostess frowns at him but makes no movement to comfort him. Instead I do.