Letters To Louis Tomlinson- One Direction Fan Fic

Chapter 30

Liam's POV:

Right now I am in the recording studio with the lads. I usually have so much fun writing and recording but I just can't enjoy it today. After Stephanie told me what was bothering her I couldn't get it off my mind. Knowing that somebody so close to me is hurting someone else who is very close to my heart is difficult. Don't get me wrong I love Louis, but I love Stephanie even more.

"Okay guys it's break time." Our manager says. I am snapped out of my deep thought and brought back to reality. The boys and I just decide to stay in the studio and hang out. Well not really hang out with each other. Niall will be texting Brooklyn, Harry will be texting Courtney, and lastly Louis will be either texting or FaceTimeing Taylor. Which I find useless, she is on tour with us so he will see her later, why not just text her?

I see Louis walking out the door to answer a FaceTime call. 'Oh I wonder who that is' I think sarcastically. As I watch him walk out the door I think to myself 'why not talk to him now'. So before I know it I am walking out the door towards Louis. "Hey Louis..can I talk to you for a minute?" I say a little annoyed, 'don't do anything stupid Liam' I keep saying to myself. "I'm in the middle of something." "It's important", Louis rolls his eyes then tells Taylor he will see her later. When he turns to face me he says "yea..what is it."

All I have to do is breathe, I take a deep breath. Just don't flip out for no reason. Stay calm."Why are you doing this to Stephanie?" "What are you talking about?" Louis says crossing his arms. Which just adds to the flames igniting inside of me. "Don't play dumb Louis you know what I'm talking about. Why are you ignoring her?" "I'm not playing dumb."

I try to stay calm but it isn't not working too well, "Stop avoiding the question Louis, you're hurting her feelings, what you're doing isn't right." He slightly chuckles "so her feelings matter to me why? That's your problem pal, she's not my girl anymore. Maybe she shouldn't be so sensitive."

Each word that he says to me plays over and over in my head  and I just can't hold anything back anymore, whatever is said, is said that's it. "Louis I am taking care of "my girl" that's why I'm standing here right now talking to you. You need to fix this, if she can forgive you for what you did to her, then you can do the same." He just looks at me "God dammit Louis, why won't you answer me!"

My yelling must be pissing him off because he looks at me like he is about to kill me, but what he says next is what kills me. " You want to know why I ignore her Liam? Do you really want to know why? It's because every damn time I see her I see what we had and how much I love her. When I see her I can see the hurt in her eyes and it kills me to know that I cause that pain. When I see her with you I see something that we could have had and my heart aches for her. Deep down I know that you're good for her and that you can give her things that I can't." I was so shocked by his words I didn't expect this from Louis, I always saw him as a player, as hard as that is to say.

I am about to walk away not having any words but Louis had more to say. "Do you think that I wake up everyday with no regrets for what I did? Or that I'm happy with Taylor? Because if you do then you are wrong, I will always blame myself for our relationship ending and for the short time we were together, I truly thought she was the one. I know that's crazy but I did. Actually loving someone scared the crap out of me. That's why I went out drinking that night, I was going to confess my love to Stephanie and it scared me, I thought that if I got a drink then I wouldn't be so scared. But one drink lead to two drinks and those drinks lead to consequences. I'll never forgive myself for what I did to her. But I'm sorry that I can't stand to be in the same room as her, seeing that she now loves somebody that's not me, to see her smile and see her happy with somebody other than me.... Seeing her not being afraid to fall in love... I'm trying to move on because she deserves you and you deserve her, as I said before you can promise her things that I can't. You can promise her your love and you can assure her that she doesn't have to worry about other girls...I'm sorry Liam.I really am. But I have Taylor as a distraction for now and that's the only thing keeping my feelings for Stephanie away. I'm doing this for you, but also for Stephanie. You guys are meant to be, you're perfect for each other.. There's nothing else to it."

Before I know what I am doing I wrap Louis in a hug. Never did I think Louis could feel this way, but I have been proven wrong. "You're  stronger than I thought Louis. What you're doing means the world to me and I'm sure if Stephanie knew she would say the same thing. But you can trust me. I won't tell her about this." All he does is nod his head, he looks shocked, I don't think he even truly knows he cared that much. Hell I am even shocked by his words.

After that, Louis and I didn't talk for a while. We just went back to the recording studio for another hour or so and then headed back to the hotel.

When I walk into our room I see Stephanie sitting on our bed watching tv. When she sees me she smiles at me, that's when I see that smile that Louis is talking about. Her smile that can light up any bad situation, the smile that lights up my entire world. And I am so honored to know that I am the one to make her smile the way she is. When I see her I basically run to her and wrap her in hugs and kiss her like never before. She was shocked by my actions but after hugging and kissing each other we just lie there in bed.

Louis words just kept playing over in my head. If I was ever in his position I don't know what I would do. I can relate to the love he felt it even feels for Stephanie, she means the world to me and this has been the best month of my life. Seeing her smile everyday and waking up to her next to me is the best feeling in the world. I  never want it to end. I feel awful for what happened to Louis, he made one horrible mistake, a mistake that he will regret for possibly the rest of his life. He will always live with himself saying 'what if '.

Looking down at Stephanie I know that I am the luckiest guy in the world. And I also know that I will do anything and everything to make her happy because that's how much I love her.

Louis' POV:

Right after I spill my heart out to Liam I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders, I finally told somebody how I felt. So I don't have to keep it all within myself, having a battle in my head on whether I should tell somebody or not. Maybe now I can try and move on. Liam has a point, it hurts me to see that I made Stephanie feel the pain she did. I can't fix that but I can fix this, now I feel like I can try and face Stephanie. As friends, I know for sure that it will hurt but I can't fix my last mistake, but I know that I can try and fix this one. Stephanie shouldn't feel anymore pain, she's happy with Liam and I can see that, heck she probably loves him more than she likes or possibly even loved me.

Admitting that to myself hurts but if she found a way to move on and be happy then so can I. 'I can fix this' is the last thing I think to myself before pouring myself another shot of whiskey.

Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed this chapter as much as I enjoyed writing it. Not going to lie I cried while writing this chapter😂. Please remember to vote and comment I'll be updating soon:)
-Hannah;)