James and I relationship couldn't be better. We just celebrated our one year anniversary. Yes, we had some pretty rough time like the Beth episode and also the Ella episode.
Today James was absent in dance class because he had a dentist class. But when I talk to him on the phone is seemed so distant. Something was off. I hope I didn't did something wrong.
The next morning
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James❤️👫: Could you come at my place after dance? I really need to talk to you.
Riley😘: Is it something wrong?
James ❤️👫: Just come
When I enter his room, James was laying on his bed back to me.
Riley: Hey babe.... I missed you at the studio
James: We can't be together anymore.
Riley: What? What are you talking about?
James: We are done.
At this point I was in tears.
Riley: I don't understand... I thought we had everything.
James: You must have thought wrong.
Riley: What happened to you yesterday? How in one day all your feeling has change?
James: Nothing happened.
Riley: Something must have happened to you. I can see how you're hurt.
James: I do this for your good
Riley: My good? Can you not see how much this is torturing me.
James: I do this to protect you.
Riley: From what?
James: Me.
Riley: You? James I know you and I trust you. You would never hurt me.
James: I already did and if we continue to be together I'll probably do it again
I can't believe he's still blaming himself for the all Beth situation
Riley: James, you need to stop blaming yourself for the Beth situation. I forgave you and so should you-
James: This is not about Beth
Riley: Then what is it about?
He took a pause before saying:
James: I lied to you yesterday I didn't go to the dentist... I went to my doctor
Riley: Why? You're perfectly healthy.
James: The problem is not my body's health. Recently, I've been getting upset for the smallest thing. I mean the other day I shouted at Thalia and Eldon for no reason. Everything just pisses me off. Except you. I can never get mad at you.
Riley: Isn't that a good thing?
James: No at my first my dad was seeing my mom this way but then after it all went down and he started ....
Riley: Your dad? You told me your dad had leave you when you were three and that you didn't have any memories of him.
James: That's another thing I lied to you about. It's true that my dad left us but when I was 12. And I have memories of my dad but they're really bad. I never told them to anybody.
Riley: Please tell me James. Help me understand what you are going through.
James: When I was young, around five, my dad was the most amazing husband any women could ask. But one day he was he was diagnosis with personality disorder with symptom that he could not control his anger. So he got fired from his job and started drinking every day. Every night, I herded my mom crying but it took me a couple of time to realise why. He was beating her Riley. He beat his own wife. But that's not the worse. One day he decided that beating my mom wasn't enough. He wanted to beat my sister. How was I supposed to let that happen? I told him to take me instead. That was the worst year of my life.
At this point, I just hug him.
James: That's why Riley I want to end up our relationship. I don't you to live the same life as my mother did with a personality disorder as a husband.
Riley: That's what you learn yesterday at the doctor?
He just nodded
James: Yesterday the doctor diagnosed me with a personality disorder...
Riley: Ohhhh James I'm always gonna be here for you
James: What you don't understand I don't want you living this life...
Riley: James I know you since I'm four. You're not like your dad. You have such a big heart.
James: But now with this disorder I don't who I am anymore.
Riley: You're the same person from last week and the same person I fell in love with one year ago. I see myself with you 10 years. I want this relationship more than anything. Not you?
James: Yes but I also want to protect you. So if I need to get away from you to do it. I'm okay with it.
Riley: I think you don't understand how being away from your is hurting me.
I kiss his cheek.
Riley: I love you so much James. Let me help you.
I kiss his jawline.
James: (moans) Riilleey, you know I can't resist you.
I gave him a small kiss on the lips. Just to tease him.
Riley: I guess I'm gonna use that at my advantage.
Yes we ended up having sex. But James and I was use to get in bed. The first time we did it was at our anniversary. It was one of the greatest nights of my life. But my favorite part about it was the after sex talk. It was really rare for me to see the romantic and cuddly side of James.
I was laying on my back and James's head was restingbetween my two scapula.
James: You have such a sexy body.
Riley: Stop it.
James: One day you'll have to start accepting my complements.
Riley: I'll accept your compliment when they'll be real.
James: One day you'll have to realise how an amazing girl you are, inside and outside.
Riley: I'll realise how amazing I am when you will realise how you have a big heart and that you'll never hurt me.
A.N : First one shot! I'm in love with this kind of books so I decide to write one. I'll write one shot like this one and some about how I tought some futur episode will happens or how I think it should have happened . Leave in the comments what you tought about this chapter !! More to come..
