Part 2

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by borntobeaWAG

by borntobeaWAG

I spent some hours reading about sexual assault and the consequences after such experience. Her terrific sight is still locked in my mind. She will definitely need her close friends and relatives to get up and move on. The fact that she has been a virgin and that the incident was actually her first sexual experience made me sad.

Before training I decided to go to the hospital and see how she was.

'Hello Mr. Reus' greeted me the doctor

'Hello, Dr. Smith. How is she?

'As we expected, she is feeling down. Some friend of hers was here, but they didn't talk much'

'Can I see her?' I said hopeful

'Yes, of course.'

I entered the room. She was looking somewhere out of the window and her phone was ringing besides her. She didn't care much.

'Hey' I said quietly

She looked at me with her big colorful eyes, but stayed silent. I expected that this would happen.

'How are you' Stupid question, Reus. How could she be?

'I'm sorry' she simple said

'For what?' I was surprised

'For your girlfriend. You two had argument yesterday because of me.'

I was shocked. She was the one who had been raped and had maybe the worst experience that ever happened to her and she was thinking about me and the stranger I was about to have sex with.

'No, no. Don't worry about this' I said with small smile.

She was quiet again. I wanted to ask her about the rapist, but that wouldn't be appropriate. I was watching her breath peacefully and her chest moving. Her face was pale and she had black circles under her eyes. She opened her mount like she was about to say something, but nothing came out. Then I decided to take the world. I approached closer to her and was watching blankly.

'Jasmine, you should talk about it. 'Her face didn't show anything. 'I can't even imagine how bad you are feeling..' I couldn't choose my words

'Thank you' she curled her lips into small fake smile

During the training I was still distracted by the thoughts about the poor Jasmine. She looked so innocent and kind.

'Reus, what's on your mind, dude? You're acting odd' Mats stated the obvious. He is good friend and I told him what happened.

'That's horrible, bro. Did you talk to her?'

'I tried, but she is silent all the time. I guess she doesn't want to see me. I'm a man, you know. I read that 15% of the raped women feel hatred toward men'

'It's possible.'

JASMINE

I felt tired and overthrown. I got nightmare and flashback and I felt used, unwanted and worthless. I still could feel the pain and tears starting rolling down my pale cheeks. I blamed myself for not having a man in my life to protect me. I felt strong until this. I was dealing with everything on my own and I felt happy with myself.

All the people were coming to my room and telling me that I would be fine. How could I trust them? I lived all alone. My parents were far away from Dortmund and I lost connection with my closest friend back in Berlin where I used to study. The footballer Reus came too. While I was truly thankful to him about what he has done, I was certain that I would never see him again.