No, this isn't fair
Love me or Leave me here
*****
"I'm serious Louis, it's like.. he just hates me did I do anything wrong" I tell him as I take a sip of my tea. He just nods giving me his full attention.
"How does it makes you feel" he asks.
"Hurt actually. Like I still love him but I'm.. I don't know. It's like I'm so close from ending it with him but yet I don't want to" I said and he gave me a sad smile.
"Babe.."
"What should I do Louis. You're his best friend. Tell me what I'm doing wrong" I begged as I saw him give me a look full of pity and sympathy.
"I'm both of your friends. Sure he's my bandmate but your my lil sis I don't want to see you upset or hurt" I shake my head.
"I understand that but lou it's gotten so bad. He stopped telling me he loved me, we never sleep together in bed, we're always arguing it's just.. I can't do this anymore Louis. He calls me all sorts of slurs and slapped me once or twice. I hate myself for still loving him but I can't help it." I said as I burst into tears with Louis quickly on my side.
"Jade.. I did-, I do-, when did that started" he asked shocked as I started sobbing harder, head buried in his chest as he rubs my back comforting.
"Shhh... sh.. jade. Calm down and explain to me what happened" I just nodded wiping my tears. Thank god I have on waterproof makeup on.
"W-well, it started a few weeks a-after zayn left when me and the girls were w-writing our song black magic. I said that I am h-happy that Liam is an amazing b-boyfriend to Sophia and well I'm g-guessing he heard Liam is an a-amazing boyfriend because he went ballistic." I stuttered as I felt him sigh. I looked up and he looked down at me staring into my eyes as if he's trying to read something.
"Okay your telling the truth" he said after a few seconds.
"You thought that I was lying" I asked in disbelief and sat up quickly.
"No. I just want to make sure before I pick sides."
"I'm home bitch" harry's voice yelled as he came through the front door. My eyes widen as I looked over at louis.
"You need to leave" I said in fear and he just shook his head.
"Not going anywhere love" I groaned. Sometimes I hate how stubborn he is.
"What the fuck is going on here"
"Nothing" I quickly tell harry as I approached him about to give me a hug.
"Don't touch me slut" he yelled slapping my hands away.
"Harry" Louis yells approaching the situation pulling me into him.
"Lou..." harry asked in disbelief shaking his long luscious curls before looking at me with ice cold eyes that made his once used to be bright emerald green to now a dark moss green.
"Really jade. My bandmate. Are you some kind of prostitute for you night job" I gasped as Louis pushed him.
"The fuck it's wrong with you haz" he asked and I smiled slightly.
"Me.. me.. what's wrong with her. She's the one who's letting other men touch her ass in public" Louis looked at him confused.
"What are you.."
"Look" harry grabbed his phone and it played me and my band mates singing grown at the Apple Music Festival. Is he for real.
"Are you joking with me" I said annoyed. Louis looked angry and stood next to me.
"The fuck harry, that's her bandmate and that was the choreography that was provided"
"And how many times do I have to tell you harry. My backup dancer is gay. G-A-Y" I yelled fuming.
"Whatever, I'm going to bed" he said before leaving in the kitchen going into the guest room and I started crying again.
"Aww babe."
"I don't know what to do Louis. Help me. Please I need help" I cried and he pulled me into a hug making me burie my face in his neck. We stayed in this position for quite a while. I looked up to see him looking down at me placing his forehead against mine.
"I'm going to help you through this ok. I don't care what day, time, month it is. I'm going to help you. I don't care if were on tour. You call I'm picking up. He said raising a hand to my face wiping away my tears delicately.
"Thank you Louis" he shrugs with a smile before moving his head back.
"No problem love, 'm a treat you as your my lil sister. Don't worry babe, if you fall, I'm a catch you" he tells me with a kiss on the cheek before squeezing my arms.
"So tell me how this song goes" he said once we sat down.
"Ok but if won't sound too good because it's Perrie's and Jesy's part."
"Don't worry love. You're an amazing singer." He teased and for once in a long time, I smiled a real one.
You used to tell me that you loved me once
What happened. What happened
Where is all this coming from
What happened. What happened
You say I'm crazy and there's nothing wrong
You're lying and you know I know
Baby what have become
What happened
We never used to go to bed angry
But that's all we ever do lately
You're turning away like you hate me
Do you hate me. Do you hate me? Oh
You take this heart
Heal it or brake it all apart
No this isn't fair
Love me or Leave me here (x3)
"Wow" he said and I nod closing my book.
"Yeah I'm not done yet"
"Jade"
"Yeah Louis"
"I think, from personal experience of course, you should do what you feel is right. Everyone has their own opinion on your relationship including me but your the one who's still with him at the end of the day. Maybe not in bed or anything but you're the only one who knows how You're feeling." He said sincerely grasping on my hands rubbing my knuckles tenderly.
"I understand" he smiled.
"Good, now love I have to get going promised my mum I'll watch the terrible twins today so I must be going but if you need me stop by and if you can't, I'm only a phone call away" he kissed me on the cheek before giving me a wink and left. I looked down at my book and headed upstairs getting into my bed.
You can take this heart, heal it or brake it all apart, noo this isn't fair, Love me or Leave me here
