A Girl With Thoughts

Chapter 1

The rusty engine revved as we were set to go, I didn't want to leave, it was too soon. The thought that I had 'unfinished business' kept pondering in my head, but why? Why? It doesn't make anything better when you have boyfriend troubles and you have to leave for summer break earlier than usual. I keep reminding myself that things aren't planned they just happen, but how far is that saying going to take me?

Alec Ryder that son of a jerk, he can't even wish me a goodbye. For God's sake, his meant to be me my boyfriend not another trouble field. Instead he wants to be an immature brat, hanging out with his friends and talking to other girls.

"I just can't take it anymore," I whisper to myself as tears roll down my soft cheeks, soon we were about to hit the motor way so I knew I could zone out for the next five hours. I make myself as comfortable as possible and instantly wipe away my useless tears. As if tears are going to change Alec for good if anything they make it worse.

After everything I've done for him, I gave him everything, if it wasn't for me he would've not been the right track of having a successful future. From the start my best-friend Louisa told me that he wasn't the one, she told me all he would ever do was break me over and over again, and test every patience I have left in me.

My mother glimpses at me from the side mirror and she gave me a slight smile, I knew she knew that I'm hurt after all she is my mom. I forget all my thoughts and take deep breath as the car slowly bends towards the motor way, I close my eyes and try to drift into a deep sleep. But I just can't rid of the thought of all the pains that I've been through. 'Remember when....' my concious inside tells me, no, not again!

After I wake up from my nap, my mum tells me "We have 1 hour & a half till we are there, would you like me to stop and get some coffee?" My mother I am the biggest coffee addict there is out there, maybe it was her way of saying that we should have a little 'chit-chat' she would say. "Errrm..... no mom you carry on driving and we'll stop later," I give her a big smile and then go back to having a drowsy/tired look again.

All the memories from the day that I told Alec I loved him and to the day he asked me out, just kept on replaying in my head like a horror film. I couldn't stop it, slowly my mind move off Alec and I start thinking about Louisa but thats no good, I suddenly remember the day she told me she self-harms and then I gradually move on to the message she sent about how Alec is player. Please just stop.

I close my eyes trying to go back to sleep and make the most of that 1hour & a half, but my sister Rosie decides to start picking on my younger sister Maya. "Maya why are you so fat for?" Rosie begins to pick on Maya, "Why are you so ugly?" Maya replies back, "Go have a bath, you smell," Rosie shouts. Maya ends the fight off with"Go brush your teeth." These annoying little brats will never ever know the meaning of peace, selfish little sluts.

P I N G P I N G P I N G P I N G

This 5 hour journey is officially doing my heading, the struggle is real when you can't find your damn phone even though you haven't touched it. "Rosie, can you please look for my phone?" I said to her, pleading, at this moment things are getting critical. I swear if she tests my patience I'll probably end up crying.

"I know where it is, but lets play a game. Lets see if you can live without your phone for the whole journey," she had a little grin on her, if anything I will slap the day light out her. "Mom? Is she having a laugh me my phone!" I screamed as I yanked out strands of her hair. My mom snatched it out of her hand and uttered "The phone stays with me," she looks at me and indicates that I will get it later but i want it now, now,now.

I grabbed it out of her hand and wipe a few tears. I hear my sisters laugh as I was crying over my phone, but I need it right now, its my only best friend.

ALEC: I'm so so sorry about yestaday, I forgot that you were leaving on that day, please don't be mad at me, I'll make it upto you. Just know that I love you&stay safe.

Why did I fall in love with a jerk who can't even remember simple things? A sorry isn't going to make up my heart-broken summer. I feel even worse, my mom should of just kept my phone with her....