Hey. My name is Lindsey Faith. Im the kinda girl who seems happy and everything. The only thing is..im not. Im depressed, insecure, sad..whatever else. But if i smile.. nobody will know. Know about what you ask? My cutting. My lovely cutting. I cant let anyone know. Not my friends. Not my family. Not anyone. Im sure they would smile..they all hate me anyways. Well welcome to my story. My story of being hated. My story of being depressed. My story of being a loser. My story of cutting. You may ask..why cut? Doesnt that make it worse? Truth is.. it helps. I can get my mind off anything and just focus on the pain. I dont have to worry about my parents divorce, who gets custody, the day i was raped, my abuse, my exes constenly calling me names, my fake friends, the bulling, the hatred, anything. I have cutting. I know the day when im ready to die.. im gonna do it. It'll be soon dont worry. I know theirs maybe two people that love me. I love them too. My best friend and my boyfriend..but they dont understand the struggle of my life. I promise by the time i finish writing this journal..this stupid journal ill be dead. Everyone will be happy. But thats all i want. Everyone happy. They want me dead..that'll make them happy right? Yeah. So thats what i'll do. So welcome to my life. My depressed life. Let me throw on a smile and treat you like anyone else. But let me cut first..Im Lindsey Faith. And my smiles? Are fake.
