Story of a Wallflower : Freshman Year

November 18, 2015

This has been a pretty crazy week..........and it's only Wednesday.

Certain things that happened in the past I did not think were important. But now these events became important to tell you what happened yesterday 

 So ever since I started having feeling for Nathan, CIndy and this girl named sheine kept telling me negative things about him:

He's an asshole

He called us a bitch

He is just a mean person

etc.

I kind of just kept ignoring what they were saying because all I saw was in him...and they did kinda act bitchy sometimes.

Every Time I would talk about him to them they would complain or if I talked to him in front of them they would complain.

EVERY TIME

and i mean EVERY TIME

Monday during P.E. I was talking to Cindy about something (I forgot exactly what it was) and I look out of the corner of my I and I saw Nathan and this guy that I don't really talk to named Todd.

 Nathan and Todd always hang out and that is the only reason I actually know who is. 

Well anyways.....

Nathan picked up to Todd and swung him around and dropped him.

Nathan does this all the time because he is just really playful. He even does it to me...minus the dropping me. So I did not really think anything about it.

The next (almost 24 hrs later) in the locker room, my friend Melifine asked me

"did you hear what happened to Nate?" when she asked this I got very puzzled

"No, What do you mean?" trying to put on my P.E. uniform.

"He is in  juvy"

"No he isn't I saw him this morning."

"They took him away during third period."

I still didn't believe her so she took me to another one of Nathan's friends, Edgar.

Edgar told us that himself and Nathan were both interrogated during 3rd period because yesterday Todd had got injured. 

When Nathan dropped Todd, Todd broke his collarbone. He did not ask for help until after school. His dad took him to the hospital and then it was declared broken.

So whenever you break something or get in some type accident the doctor always ask "What happen?"

So Todd told her.

Todd's dad got the police involved and pulled Edgar, Nathan, and some other kid out of class to ask them questions.

"omg you must feel hurt since he's not hear, Edgar" I said because if I had a close friend go to juvy/jail for just playing around I would be kinda hurt.

"Hurt? Hell no. I don't like Nathan. He is mean and annoying."

I was so surprised when he said that. I would never think he would say anything like that. 

"He deserves this because he's an ass" He continued. "You need to stop being so nice to people."

I was so speechless when he said this. I even started second guessing m y thoughts about him. I started to think Cindy was right about Nathan.

(I am the type of girl that does not like guys that does or is anything bad.)

Todd has not been at school since Monday, but I hope he is alright.

Was not until Wednesday I stopped having feeling for him. So now I only like one person again.....Daniel.

I have a new favorite song. It is Fireworks! by Sounds Like Harmony and Cemetery Drive by My Chemical Romance. I also don't like All Time Low and Sleeping with sirens as much as I used to. Ever since the concert I just get flashbacks to that night whenever I listen to them.

My new favorite bands are Twenty One Pilots, The 1975, and Atilla.

You wanna know what my pet peeve is? It is when stores and houses decorate there house 'christmasy' and plays christmas music before Thanksgiving. Its very bothering. 
Why don't we have Thanksgiving music anyways?

I still havent got my phone fixed and its been what feels like two years. Every day has been hell without it I can't listen to music at school and stuff. And I gave my Ipod away at warped tour to get a front of the line pass.

My dad told me he would get it fixed before we leave to go to Vegas (which is this coming Tuesday) but he has not done anything to help.

Lately I have been feeling pretty sad. I don't know why but I just feel in the mood to do anything. Sometime I just want to take a LONG walk around my neighborhood alone.