Finding Light

chapter 9

Elizabeth (P.O.V )

My mind was going crazy. I had a huge lump in my throat and my chest was aching. I've never felt this way before. What's wrong with me. The one time I love having a hand on me, I messed up.

I was too busy scolding myself, that I wasn't watching where I was going. I bumped into someone and instantly started apologizing like crazy.

"Chill girl, it's alright" the guy I bumped into said.

"Sorry" I said again, causing him to chuckle.

"You look sad, tell me who did that to you and I'll make sure he's sorry for causing such a beautiful lady pain." He said caressing my cheek with his thumb. It burned when he touched me.

"ouch" I jerked back my head. "What the hell?" I shrieked.

"ahh, you've found your mate. I was hoping we could be something but I guess being friends is fine." He most've seen the confusion written in my face because he started laughing. "Oh, baby girl, I was just kidding. I'm the gayest they come." He breathed in between laughs.

I couldn't help laughing along. But I was still confused about what 'mate' is. "What's that?" I asked.

"Well... In my case, gay means that I have an eye only for dicks. I personally think gay sex it a lot better. I can get my dick stroked, while someone fucks my a-" I cut him off before he went any further.

"No, no, no, no!! Now you've got disturbing images in my head"

"You asked, I was just answering" he said nonchalantly with a shrug.

"I meant mate. What the hell is mate"

"Oh, that. Your other half." He simply said. I waited for him to elaborate but got nothing.

"Can you give me a little bit more of a detailed description?" I'm beginning to get annoyed. He could see that and he smirked.

"Does my baby girl have a name?" He sucessfully tried to change the subject.

"Liz, yours?"

"Blake, but when I become a famous county singer, I'm changing my name. I don't want to be referred to as Blake #2." He looked dead serious after saying that.

"You are crazy, I like it" and I did. I've always wanted a gay best friend and his perfect for the spot.

"I can read minds" I nearly fainted. What the fuck? He had to be joking. If not, does he know what happened with Seth and I? I didn't know what to say, so I just faked a laugh.

"I'm not joking. And I don't know the details about you and Seth. Do you even know what your real laugh sound like?" I was too shocked to answer so I just walked away.

Blake grabbed me by the arm and yanked me to an empty classroom.

"Look I'm sorry, I don't know any I just told you that. I've never told anyone this before and I guess you looked liked a person I could trust. Please don't tell anyone." He pleaded.

"Who am I going to tell? Don't worry you can trust me. But could you please not read my mind? I want to be able to share my thoughts, not have them stolen, if that makes sense."

"I completely understand. If you don't want me to read your mind, all you have to do is put an imaginary wall up in your head. That blocks me and anyone else from reading your thoughts. Just don't tell your mate I told you this, cause he'd kill me."

"Why"

"Because he can too read your mind after a kiss. Wolves are very protective and possessive when it comes to their mates. They want to know everything about them, how to pleasure, how they feel, and where they are. If you blocked him, he would be pissed because he couldn't figure these things out."

"Couldn't they just ask? Isn't this considered stalking? Can the mate tell someone's readying their mind?" This is insane. I don't even understand this whole mate thing and I've already decided I don't want to be part of it.

"It's usually the dominant one in the relationship who can read their mate's mind. Only dominants know about this except for a few, like you and myself. To them, it makes no sense to ask. It's their mate after all."

So does that mean Seth is reading my mind now? What would he do if I blocked him?

"What happened with you two?" Blake asked, reading my mind again.

"I don't know. One second he was kissing me and the next he looked like he was going to attack me. He ran away and His eyes were changing color I think." I menage to say without crying.

"Are you by any chance a virgin?" He looked worried.

"No, far from it actually" I said with guilt and discuss.

"Did he get close to your...?" I quickly nodded, not wanting him to finish.

"Well holy fuck. You're in big trouble! Not to mention he's an alpha!!! Baby girl, you're screwed as fuck!" His eyes were wide and he was shaking his head while looking at me with pity.

"What will happen?" Now I was beganning to get worried.

"Stay here, I'm gonna grab my stuff and take you to my grandma's house." He was gone before I replied.